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YoSh!! 雨ニモマケズ!!

2007-05-18T22:20:00.000+09:30

not losing to the rain
not losing to the wind
not losing to the snow or to summer's heat
with a strong bodywithout wantnever angering
always smiling quietly
every day four bowls of brown rice
miso and some vegetables to eat
to everythingwithout judging
carefully watching and listening and understanding
then not forgetting
in the shade of the woods of the pines of the fields
being in a little thatched hut
if there is a sick child in the east
going and watching over them
if there is a tired mother in the west
going and shouldering her sheaf of rice
if there is someone near death in the south
going and saying there's no need to be afraid
if there is a quarrel or a suit in the north
telling them to leave off with such nonsense
when there's drought letting tears fall
when the summer's cold wandering upset
called a blockhead by everyone
without being praised
without being blamed
such a person
i want to become

[雨ニモマケズ]Poem written by KENJI MIYAZAWA

Doki doki!!

2007-05-15T18:29:00.000+09:30

ARGHHHH!!!!!

I suddenly watch this drama tw ver. and suddenly i noticed! ---> WU ZUN is very HANDSOME wooooo~~~~!@&*+&!!!!^!!!!
Oh GAWD!!
>.<'
*my heart goes doki doki everytime i watch this drama..*
SHIT!!
=__=''
i thought i wouldnt fall for this guy *remembering TOKYO JULIET*
he was so not for me *remembering his long hair in TOKYO JULIET*
his hair back then was awfull... making him looked weird..
but now...
ARGH!!!
his hair is short! so shuai...
+_+
*dead*

the most deadliest thing is... that he is in MELBOURNE in march!
ARGHH!!!
i've downloaded this drama in new years eve... its done! but i skipped watching it..
i thought, may be KAMENASHI's drama more interesting than his..
but NOOOO~~
im so wrong~~ T.T
*its hana kimi ellen! for god sake! it wouldnt be a bad drama~~!!*
i thought that this taiwan drama is less better than japanese but im so WRONG~!
*ellen is full of regrets*
He is here in MELBOURNE when chinese new year..
ermm..
i was in the festival in CROWN.. i wonder if he also there that time..
=__=
*lame*
ARH!
he even came to MEDAN!
*cries*
this guy is .. *speechless*
i need to see another episode of hana kimi then...
A~~ Wu Zhun...
>.<'''

MY ICHIBAN

2007-05-08T18:50:00.000+09:30

hue..
I know I am being so unfaithfull doing this..
BUT!
I've decided!
KOTA YABU is MY ICHIBAN. Replacing Tsubasa Imai who was 1st in my heart.. HAHAHAHA
Loh?
*please tsubasa-fan dont hate me*
And F.Y.I., Yabu will stand in the 1st place together with KOIKE TEPPEI!!!
HUEAAAA~~~
LOVE EM both!!
MUAHH~~~

borders of the sea

2007-04-11T22:04:00.000+09:30

hi, ^^
long time no post..
I've been in a hiatus since .. AGES!
ok..
im sorry my blog T-T
Haha
now im wanna talk about the song i've recently listened to!
It is MIKA - My interpretation (!)

Yes! it is a BULE song (bule means in indonesia is WESTERN)
Oh gawd..
it has been a long time ya, I have never like western song after WESTLIFE era...
(i like western song since SPICE GIRL era, and stops after WESTLIFE's) haha

This song is great!
I mean really great!.
the song, the melody, the lyrics! I love em all..
and surprisingly, after I googled "MIKA" around, i found that he is quite CUTE afterall (untuk ukuran bule) hahaha
well he is not entirely BULE, he is Half England and HALF LEBANON.. HAHHA
yes, that blood mix makes him cute..
HOOOOOOO...

I heard this song in a rent car (i dont know whose CD's it was), a friend of mine starts to sing the lyrics and I found the melody really fun and the words are GOOD *i feel freedom* hahaha
I rarely heard song that makes me like I am in front of an open sea with all the beauties that all the mother nature can give.. SO GOOD!!

TRY TO HEAR it :)

here, i gave the lyrics of it.

Artist: Mika
Album: Life In Cartoon Motion
Year: 2007
Title: My Interpretation

You talk about life you talk about death
and everything inbetween
like its nothing
and the words are easy
you talk about me and talk about you
and everything i do
like it something
that needs repeated
i dont need an alibi or for you to realise
the things we left unsaid
are only taking space up in our head
make it my fault win the game
point the finger place the blame
it does me up and down
it doesnt matter now

coz i dont care if i ever talk to you again
this is not about emotion
i dont need a reason not to care what you say
or what happened in the end
this is my interpretaion
and it dont dont make sense

the first to wish to count to ten
i hold my breath and wonder when itl happen

does it really matter
if half of what you said is true
and half of what i didnt do
could be different would it make it better
if we forget the things we know
would we have somewhere to go
the only way is down i can see that now

coz i dont care if i ever talk to you again
this is not about emotion
i dont need a reason
not to care what you say
or what happened in the end
this is my interpretaion
and it dont dont make sense

CREDITS to allysa
[lyricsmania.com]

JAKARTA huh?

2007-03-23T17:59:00.000+10:30

sejujur nya yah..
G gak suka Jakarta SAMA SEKALI.. -.-'
If not becoz of the people (Family, Friends and people I care about), I rather stayed here..
hh...
G baru baca blog seseorang dan menemukan kesamaan .. kekesalan yg sama..
huahh...
bener!! IGNORANCE is a BLISS in INDO..
Duh...
bete-bete-bete..
uda macet!, public transport kayak e-ek (sorry.. i have to say this), jalanan buat orang jalan kaki juga gak bener blass!,BANJIR!!, and orang2 berkuasa yg gak penting ngurusin "sesuatu yang ngak penting" menjadi "sesuatu yg penting" ---> gak ada kerjaan banget...
Hm.. uda jelas merdeka dari taon berapa tuh.. masi gini2 aja indo..
malah ngulang lagi kesalahan2 sejarah... ALAMAJANG!!!
SEJARAH itu dibaca ya MAS MBAK! buat dipelajari supaya jangan kejadian lagi gituuuuuu
ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kesel gw kesel gw...

anyway...
Surga gw di indo paling cuma MALL, 2 Mangoes..
yah.. gitu2 aja..

JALAN KAKI takut di copet/jambret, naek public transport takut di kemalingan, jadi nya naek mobil mulu.. terus macet deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
bete bete... aturan klo lancar tu cuma perjalanan bangsa 10 menit jadi 1 JAM!.. gila gak..
ampun deh..

I love live here...
IF not becoz of the people... I aint coming back...
I dont want to...

hoooh

2007-01-22T10:01:00.000+10:30

sekarang gw lagi di computer lab melborne uni...
menunggu waktu lecture selanjut nyaaa...
betewe..
sinner san.. klo lo juga liat blog gw ya..
titipan lo yg eminesence itu kok g gak nemu2 ya?
nemu nya cuma brosur konser tok.. >.<
ADuuuDUuuuu....

Hari ini melbourne dingin boo..
kemaren baru aja hujan tak berenti sekarang dingin.. =.=
kemaren ada GAY PARADE.. ^^
liat2 - liat - liat...
hohohoho
overal interesting sie.. tapi yg gak enag nya paling ujan gerimis nya ma angin yg tak terkendali yg senang merusak payung kuw >.< Cuuuhh... seballl

(HoPInG) ThIS DaY WiLL be A BeTtER DaY tHaN YeStErDaY ^^V
YEY!!!

saya lapaaarrr

Deeeeeekkk..
shinji jeleeeek
kok gak bilang2 ke surabaya?????
>.<
Cuiiiihhhhh

reply me shinjiiiiii

POKER

2007-01-14T12:03:00.000+10:30

WoW...
akhir2 ini sejak kenalan ma nama nya poker...
g jadi ketagihan...
COMMENT: TERNYATA MAEN KARTU ITU SERU YA~~ ^^V hihihi

anyway..
tadi malam tuw pas pulang ada bule aneh nanya2 tipen gitu ttg bhs indo nya "what happen"
trus si tipen bilang.. "ADA APA"... trus si bule gila itu trus2 bilang "ADA APA~~!!"
sama semua orang yg lewat depan dia..
wow...
]oke...
hehehe

ATARSHI BLOGGER BETA... (akhirnyaa)

2007-01-12T23:29:00.000+10:30

WoW!!
I just UPDATED my own blogger ..
this BETA VERSION makes me go CRAZY~~
Cool~~
I even can put colours and sizes plus font witohout wondering what "computer langguage" should u choose.. ^^
yey!!

cheers!!..
oh..
now my adrenal gland got a bit relieved...
^^
hehehe

HAPPY!!!

SUMMER in MELBOURNE

2006-12-26T00:15:00.000+10:30

Oh my GAWD...

coba bayangin ya..
SUMMER.. !! it supposed to be HOT kan?
in melb it COLD.. this year even be the coldest xmas ever..
>.<
tadi g lagi jalan2 ma tipen... trus...
SYUUU~~ ---> Angin booo.. dingin..

lalu..

"tik tik tik".. ---> gerimis aer.. (aer nya juga dingin T_T )

an then..

"tok tok tok.. brotok tok...BROTOKKK... BYUARRR!!" ---> ini bunyi es jato.. T_T hix..
ada HAILing..
WHOAAAAHHH..

in summer saya dapet ujan es...
T_T
dimana lagi coba..

>.<
ya uda..
ay bobo dolo...
lagidapet juga...
cape d...

>.<
D!
lo klo mo cet ma g kabar2 rin g napa???
>.<
RINDU niiii
T_T
errrrrrr

Ohh

2006-12-25T16:37:00.000+10:30

g cape bgt bo hari ini..
nga tau napa..
btw..
g nemu link nya pelem2 teppei lohh!!
BOTH OG EM!!
>.<
but it is 700megs each!
>.< DOUSHIYOUUU
i've already use bout 2,5 gigs out of 5gigas of mine..
>.<
ARGHHHH!
minnaa...
ada yg mo bantu...
=___=''

kowai

2006-12-08T20:52:00.000+10:30

maybe it just me..
g ikhir2 ini kecapean.. dan badan sakit semua..
mao ngapain juga ga mao..
bikin semua orang kesel kli ya..
most of all.. him i guess..
hh
nanka sabishi na..
i miss wo de jia ren..
anyway..
g hari ini da kelar bikin acc lohh.. tapi di bantu ama tipen..
hehe
sankyu darling sama.. ^-^
hooh..
now im not alone.. but i do feel alone..
how to get rid of this feeling na..
nanka muzukashii.. tashikani.. -__-''
i really do miss nci medan's food..

MIENAI

2006-11-07T01:27:00.000+10:30

apa yang terjadi jika orang yang memberitahu mu tentang hal2 yang perlu dihindari ternyata dia lah bagian dari yang perlu dihindari oleh dirimu juga?

apa memang seharus nya aku tidak merasa sesakit ini waktu tahu kamu bicara seperti itu?
jika iya.. kenapa bisa begini..

apa yang akan kamu lakukan jika pandangan mu kabur karena asap dan air mata? apa kamu akan jalan terus?
apakah bijak jika menunggu asap reda dan air mata kering baru berjalan?

nee.. I think I found "ishida yuuya"..

hhh.. but why im now questioning things like.. do "ishida yuuya" will done this?
why he did this? what for? is he real? is he real "ishida yuuya"?

Im walking on my insanity..

WATAK PEREMPUAN

2006-10-19T21:57:00.000+09:30

Watak perempuan kata orang susah ditebak, well.. tadi siang saya menemukan sebuah email foward-an dari groups saya yang isinya tentang ini. hehe
This is for everybody to see. Hope it will somehow helps ya :)

Menurut primbon Jawa, karakter atau watak perempuan
bias diduga dari tanggallahirnya. (dari majalah SPICE!)

Tanggal 1.
Berwatak keras, kemauannya sulit dibelokkan. Umumnya
sangat setia kepada pasangannya, selalu menepati janji
dan mencintai suaminya sepenuh hati sampai mati. Sisi
negatifnya adalah mudah putus asa, gampang menyerah,
dan sulit melupakan kegagalan yang
dialaminya.

Tanggal 2
Pandai bergaul dan tidak membosankan sehingga
perempuan ini selalu mempunyai banyak teman.
Jika ia menikah biasanya mempunyai banyak anak.

Tanggal 3
Berkemauan keras, suka marah tapi cuma sebentar dan
tidak pendendam. Ia tidak akan membalas
walaupun disakiti orang lain karena sifatnya yang
pemaaf. Selain itu ia tipe perempuan yang setia.

Tanggal 4
Pendiam tapi banyak akal. Otaknya berisi dan daya
ingatnya tinggi, sehingga kebanyakan perempuan
yang lahir tanggal 4 mencapai prestasi akamedis yang
tinggi.

Tanggal 5
Umumnya banyak bicara dan suka gosip. Mudah marah dan
biasanya kalau marah tangannya ikut 'bicara'. Jika
menikah perempuan ini akan membuat keluarganya
kaya dan ia sama sekali tidak kikir, suka mendermakan
hartanya.

Tanggal 6
Wataknya pelupa dan ceroboh, karena itu tidak heran
jika sering mendapat marah atau teguran. Akan tetapi
ia perempuan yang rajin dan tekun serta tidak pernah
mengeluh.

Tanggal 7
Pendiam dan hanya bicara seperlunya. Ia juga tipe
setia walapun pasangannya tidak terlalu
memperhatikannya.
Sisi negatifnya adalah pemalas.

Tanggal 8
Selalu berpikir panjang sebelum memutuskan atau
melakukan sesuatu. Sangat
taat terhadap ajaran agama yang dianutnya. Setia
kepada suami tapi tidak sayang kepada mertua.

Tanggal 9
Berhati keras sehingga sulit dinasehati dan selalu
menuruti kemauannya sendiri.
Ia juga mudah marah, mudah tersinggung, tapi mudah
pula melupakannya.

Tanggal 10
Berwawasan luas dan selalu mempertimbangkan baik buruk
dalam melakukan sesuatu. Ia tidak suka membicarakan
kejelekan orang lain. Mempunyai sifat
pelupa, walaupun masih muda usia.

Tanggal 11
Menjunjung tinggi sopan santun dan selalu menghormati
orang yang lebih tua.
Penuh pertimbangan dalam melakukan sesuatu dan tidak
menyukai pertengkaran. Perempuan ini tidak mudah
tersinggung; jika ada orang yang mengkritiknya, ia
malah sangat berterimakasih.

Tanggal 12
Pendiam tapi mudah marah. Menyukai berbicara tentang
kebaikan dan kebajikan, akan tetapi cara bicaranya
sering menggunakan kata-kata yang tajam sehingga
banyak orang menjadi tersinggung.

Tanggal 13
Pembohong dan suka berdusta. Juga keras kepala, karena
itu sukar untuk dinasehati. Tetapi ia perempuan
yang rajin bekerja dan hemat. Sayangnya ia juga pelit.

Tanggal 14
Pandai bicara yang menarik perhatian orang sehingga
banyak teman. Hatinya sendiri juga baik, tidak
sombong, tidak suka berprasangka dan selalu berbicara
dan berpikir hal yang baik-baik saja.

Tanggal 15
Pandai memecahkan persoalan dengan pikirannya yang
berwawasan luas. Ia juga ulet dan tidak mudah putus
asa. Jika disakiti, perempuan ini lebih suka
memaafkannya daripada balas dendam.

Tanggal 16
Supel dan ramah sehingga banyak teman. Dalam bergaul
suka sekali membicarakan orang lain. Selain itu ia
mudah lupa dan suka bermalas-malasan.

Tanggal 17
Sifatnya yang sabar, cinta damai, dan suka memaafkan
kesalahan orang lain membuatnya disayang keluarga
dan teman-temannya. Perempuan ini juga penuh
pertimbangan sebelum melakukan sesuatu agar tidak
menyesal di kemudian hari.

Tanggal 18
Bergaya hidup mewah. Suka akan barang-barang bermerek
dan mahal. Sangat rajin bekerja dan ulet, sayang suka
berbohong.

Tanggal 19
Perempuan ini selalu berusaha keras untuk mendapatkan
apa yang diinginkannya.
Tapi jika akhirnya tidak tercapai, ia bisa menerimanya
dengan pasrah. Ia juga mudah tersinggung.

Tanggal 20
Kurangnya kepercayaan diri membuatnya mudah dihasut
sehingga sering melakukan sesuatu yang di luar
kesadarannya. Ia juga mudah putus asa dan
pelupa.

Tanggal 21
Pandai menilai karakter orang lain, tapi kemudian
menggunakannya sebagai bahan gosip untuk menarik
perhatian teman-temannya. Perempuan ini mempunyai
pendirian yang kuat sehingga tidak mudah dipengaruhi.

Tanggal 22
Suka membaca dan bertanya membuatnya kaya akan
pengetahuan. Cenderung pendiam dan secara
diam-diam menilai karakter orang-orang di sekitarnya.
Ia hanya mau bicara tentang hal yang benar-benar
diketahuinya atau dipahaminya.

Tanggal 23.
Suka bercanda sehingga orang lain sering bingung kapan
ia serius dan kapan tidak. Walaupun begitu ia juga
mudah marah kalau tersinggung walaupun jarang. Ia juga
tipe perempuan yang setia.

Tanggal 24
Pandai mengatur keuangan dan suka memberi nasehat
kepada teman atau anggota keluarga yang berbuat
kesalahan. Ia rajin bekerja dan tidak suka gosip.

Tanggal 25
Berpikir positip, logis dan berpandangan luas.
Perempuan ini menyukai hal-hal yang praktis dan tidak
suka hal-hal yang berbau takhayul. Ia suka membantu
orang yang membutuhkannya.
Sifat negatifnya sulit memaafkan kesalahan orang lain
dan juga dirinya sendiri.

Tanggal 26
Perempuan ini pekerja yang giat. Ia tidak bisa diam,
apa yang biasa dikerjakan, ia kerjakan dengan
semangat.
Sayangnya ia agak ceroboh dan seringkali gegabah dalam
mengambil keputusan.

Tanggal 27
Pandai membedakan baik dan buruk, sehingga ia menjadi
jarang membuat keputusan yang salah. Ia menjadi
tempat mencari nasehat bagi teman-teman dan
kerabatnya. Ia juga pandai menilai sifat orang lain

Tanggal 28
Sangat berbakat dalam memanfaatkan uang untuk
berbisnis. Kepandaiannya berbicara mendukung bakatnya
tersebut. Namun ia kurang tabah dalam
menghadapi cobaan.

Tanggal 29
Agak pembosan dan kurang setia terhadap suaminya. Tapi
selalu disayang oleh anak-anaknya dan berhasil
mendidik mereka. Perempuan ini selalu tegar menghadapi
cobaan dan pandai
menyelesaikan masalah.

Tanggal 30
Banyak rejekinya walaupun bukan pekerja keras. Suka
membagi-bagikan rejekinya kepada orang yang
membutuhkannya. Tapi ia tidak suka dibohongi.

Tanggal 31
Mempunyai bakat seni yang luar biasa dan umumnya
menjadi orang terkenal setelah mengembangkan
bakatnya tersebut. Mudah bosan dan selalu mencari
sesuatu yang lain dari yanglain. Agak pemilih dalam
berteman, tapi begitu berteman biasanya awet sampai
tua.

Okay, this is memang according to PRIMBON JAWA.. but i must admit daku bagai ketembak panah dan di lempar batu tuw.. [BACA: Daleeemm Booo]

ENJOY!!

NO TITLE

2006-10-19T00:56:00.000+09:30

gak pernah merasa se terpaksa ini nulis blog sendiri.
rencana nya ini blog menanmpung teppei's new info tapi berhujung menjadi curahan hati semua nya..
HALAH!
dasar gw..
kemana2 juga jadi nya melenceng..
mao ngobrol ama itu orang lebi dari 2 jam ajah.. pasti berante,m punya..
padahal baru kemaren aja baekan nya .. mesti berantem lagi..
gara2 nya -------->this blog!!
Ohhhhh

Apakah aku harus menyamakan persepsi tentang BLOG ini juga sama dia???
bener2 deh..
nulis sesuatu di blog ini gak bisa tiap hari nulis nya..
butuh pemicu bwt seneng nulis sesuatu.. dan GW juga mikir kira2 sapa aja yang bakal gw singgung jadi gw hati2 nulis blog ini...
g juga berusaha selalu untuk jaga perasaan orang2 ituuuu *klo gak ngerasa ya maap ajah*
maka nya gak semua nya tiap hari aku tulis disini...
tapi fakta nya saya selalu gagal menjaga perasaan orang laen toohh!!!

HELAH!!
saya tahu setiap orang punya "tempat" pribadi nya masing2..
dan saya tahu juga saya harus menjga dan menghormati tiap2 tempat pribadi masing2 ituu..
dan saya juga hanya berharap saya diperlakukan sama juga

bener2 dehh..
INI JUGA HARI blog gw tiba2 ada PASSWORD and user name PULA!!! padahal register bwrt bikin ini aja blom..
GRRRRR..
HEBADDDD

Yah.. aku cuma pengen kamu ngehargai cara aku disini.
Aku gak pengen tiap kali kamu minta apah terus waktu aku gak turutin ajah marah, bete,..
ERRGGHH... ampun dehhh.......
selama ini aku berusaha gak pengen kamu marah (dan selalu gagal tentunya) dan semuanya berakhir dengan aku memperbaiki sikap ku yang kau tidak senangin ituu.

This time../.
i dont know..

kata kamu pengen liat aku nulis apa kan? nulis apa aja boleh kan?
pengen tau aku mikir apa kan?

gei ni

KANJIRU

2006-10-09T00:08:00.000+09:30

o yeah/
pas waktu aku tanya kenapa kamu hari ini, perasaan kamu gimana, kenapa tulis ini.. semua nga ada jawaban nya.. semua kamu jawab : "pikirin aja sendiri"

klo emang bisa aku pikirin sendiri ngapain aku bicara in sama kamu.. kalo aku bisa mikirn itu sendiri... ngapaoin juga aku nanya sama kamu... kalo juga aku bisa mikirin ini sendiri.. ngapainn juga aku terus tanya ini sama kamu.. see!! i can not find the answer!
I try to understand you...

waktu aku balikin semua omongan itu ke kamu, kamu nya malah bilang :"hebad semua omongan aku kamu balikin ke aku yang"

Kamu ngerti ngak sie? aku ini pengen kamu ngerti apa yg aku rasain pas kamu ngomong kayak gitu sama aku *semua hal yg aku balikin ke kamu*..
aku pengen kamu ngerti.. aku penge kamu ngerti gimana rasanya dan kenapa aku ngak bisa ngomong ...
aku pengen kamu ngerti.,.;.
terus kenapa semua jadi begini.,..

"when everything stays the same its normal yang.. "
Kamu bilang ini normal.??

"kamu ngak puas ya klo gak bikin aku marah?"
ini kalimat aku paling expect least diucapin sama kamu...
dari semua orang.. kamu yg paling ngak pengen aku denger bilang ini..
aku ngak pengen bikin kamu marah...
tapi semua ucapan kamu bikin aku ngak habis pikir..
kamu orang yg paling jago bikin aku kecewa...
bikin aku down..

"nogmong dong yang ngomong"..
kamu pikir aku ini mesin ngomong terus apah?
giliran aku bisa ngomong terus.. semua omongan aku ini ngebosenin...
kamu tau itu...
maka nya aku diem.. lagian aku juga ingin tau kamu itu lagi perasaan nya gimana.. emang gak boleh tau ya kamu sekarang lagi mikir apah?

"aku cuma gak pengen bikin kamu kawatir aja yang...."
terusin aja terus kamu mi8kir kayak gini..
sekalian gak usah ada yg di share aja sekalian klo gak ada yg mao dibikin kawatir...
aku tuh seneng mikirin kamu.. paling gak aku seneng jadi orang yg kamu bagi..
tempat kamu curhatin klo lagi ada apa gitu di pikiran kamu..
selama ini aku mikir kyak nya aku terus yg share...
kamu selalu ngelak ..
why? is it becoz im the one that cause those problem in your brains dear?
is that why u cant tell me whats in your mind?

I envy those person whom you share your problems with..

hahaha...
vita...
what are you?

I better sleep...
lagian dia juga cape ama aku...
hahh,..

sabishi...

Short Message Service alias SMS

2006-10-04T22:32:00.000+09:30

hahahaha.. ini lagu g denger ampe mabok gara2 banyak orang suka gelar dangdutan gitu di belakang rumah gw.. begitu ada adat nikahan juga.. itu sound system pasti ngeluarin bunyi lagu ini... ><
dari ndak suka.. ampe demen.. -.-' AKU KERACUNANNN... im fully toxicated...
dari tukang ngamen n bencong di jalan.. sampai di stasiun tivi.. ah my gawd.. ini lagu dashyatt... T_T

SMS by Ria Amelia

Bang SMS siapa ini bang
Bang pesannya pake sayang sayang
Bang nampaknya dari pacar abang
Bang hati ini mulai tak tenang

Bang tolong jawab tanyaku ke Abang
Bang nanti HP ini ku buang
Bang ayo dong jujur saja abang
Bang, kalau masih sayang

Kalau Bersilat lidah, memang Abang rajanya
Tlah nyata Abang salah tetap abang berkilah

Orang salah kirimlah
Orang iseng-iseng lah
Orang salah kirimlah
Orang iseng-iseng lah

Mulai dari sekarang HP akuyang pegang

Bang SMS siapa ini bang
Bang pesannya pake sayang sayang
Bang nampaknya dari pacar abang
Bang hati ini mulai tak tenang

Bang tolong jawab tanyaku ke Abang
Bang nanti HP ini ku buang
Bang ayo dong jujur saja abang
Bang, kalau masih sayang

Kalau Bersilat lidah, memang Abang rajanya
Tlah nyata Abang salah tetap abang berkilah

Orang salah kirimlah
Orang iseng-iseng lah
Orang salah kirimlah
Orang iseng-iseng lah

Bang SMS siapa ini bang
Bang pesannya pake sayang sayang
Bang nampaknya dari pacar abang
Bang hati ini mulai tak tenang

ONLINE

2006-10-04T20:30:00.000+09:30

Mood: URESHI
SONG: Ting Ma Ma De Hua [Chou Jie Lun]

¸.•*´¨`*•.¸¸.•*´¨`*•.¸¸.•*´¨ `*•.¸¸.•*´¨`*•.¸¸.• *´¨`*•.¸¸.•*´¨`*•.¸

hoaa..
akhir nya bisa online.. aku senaaaang ;)
hihihihihi
tapi XL masi tetep DODOL seperti biasa .. masa' diisi dengan model apapun ndak bisa.. >< hebad bener ini XL.. Arghh.. -.-'
hari ini yah.. saya bernostalgia tentang cover2 nya JaY..
coba perhatikan.. most of his album cover/single mata nya dia ndak keliatan gitu.. gelap.. ^^ hihihi.. baru tau saya.. >< terus pasti ada warna2 gelap.. item2.. -.-' kayak nya mata dia paling jelas di Qi Li Xiang de.. yg laen gelep2 gitu.. -.-'
hehehe
moga2an ini XL bisa cepet diisi.. pulsa ku kerontang total uda 3 hari.. >< Arghhh
HikX hiX..

betewe, thankyou ya arleen ama tze uda invite me di shabu party itooh ;) hohohoho
PLEASURE!!! Cheers girlsss...
i love you all..

¸.•*´¨`*•.¸¸.•*´¨`*•.¸¸.•*´¨ `*•.¸¸.•*´¨`*•.¸¸.• *´¨`*•.¸¸.•*´¨`*•.¸

KAO

2006-09-29T23:15:00.000+09:30

Hari ini potong rambut gitu.. terus hasil potongan nya ... poni ku kependekan.
>< ARGH! long story..
btw, g lagi ngorek2 album poto, and i found this!

Hehe
This is an ICE CREAM CONE with CHILI POWDER toppings.. ^^'
hahaha
Guess who did this.. hehe .. as in my entire life, I've never seen any ice cream like this b4. Okay, I admit i had a CHILI ice cream b4, (to be honest, it was awfull.. ><) but never had an vanilla ice cream with chili as its topings.. ^^ hahahaha
Poor Jordan.. ^^ hehehe.. anyway..
it is sweet memories to remember loh.. ^^ hahaha..
PS: arleen.. this post has no offense towards you ya.. ^^ hehe
peace! *hugx arleeeenn*

(Miss)understood ARENA TOUR 2006 DVD

2006-09-22T23:23:00.000+09:30

OmG.. I've just know this issue >< Argh..
Hamasaki Ayumi will release her Live Tour : (Miss)understood ARENA TOUR 2006 on November 1st, 2006 !!
It contains 3 DVD! Here are the details..

【DVD-1】
Are You Wake Up?
Born To Be...
AUDIENCE
evolution
STEP you
Ladies Night
alterna
is this LOVE?
(miss)understood
tasking
Pride
rainy day
Startin'
UNITE!
Bold & Delicious

【DVD-2】
HEAVEN
teens
BLUE BIRD
Humming
Boys & Girls
Beautiful Day

【DVD-3】
◆MC集
◆オフショット映像　予定

this is MUST HAVE for collectors.. ^^ (maksud nya saya mesti punya juga gitu.. ^^'')

credits: http://www.avexnet.or.jp/ayu/news/060922.html

TIME

2006-09-22T21:31:00.000+09:30

Arghhhh!!!
Ampun dah…
Ini hari tu DODOL banget .. CIH!! Cuih... ARGHHHHH!!!!
ini hari g mesti pegi ke tempat les di puri tu jam 09.30 pagi. Bearti dari rumah gw harus berangkat jam 08.45 soalnya biasa nya perjalanan makan waktu 45 menitan..
and then..
ternya ta ade g masuk kampus jam 09.00 pagi. Means waktu mepet bgt. Jadi akhir nya dia pegi ke kampus nya jam 08.00
Begitu jam 08.45. gw turun ke bawah nyari sopir ga ada. Tanya bokap dimana. Terus ternyata kaya nya si sopir lagi NAMBAL BAN! .. bokap bilang suruh tunggu aja... paling bentar.. nambal cuman di hasyim ashari. Waktu itu waktu menunjukan pukul 08.50.. gw pikir, ya oke lah... plg ga ampe jam 09.00 g masi bisa tolerir.. gw tungguin.. ternyata ampe jam 09.10 gak dateng2 tuh sopir!! Gileeee..
AMPUN!!! Ay telpon sopir nya. Dia bilang lagi nambal, bentar lagi nyampe. *sama kayak bokap ngomong*.. terus g diem.,., g liat jam .. sekarang malah 09.15 OH NOOOO!!!!!
Tinggal 15 menit ke puri indah!! Mana mungkin perjalanan 45 menit (di JAKARTA lage!) jadi tinggal 15 menit or even less!! *ellen geleng2 kepala*..
Terus langsung nelpon laoshi ay, bilang ban bocor, bakal telat bgt.. minta di taro di jadwal dia paling akhir hari ini. Dan ternyata bisa. Tapi laoshi ay agak bete gitu d.. ARGHHHHHH!!!!
Jadwal terakhir hari ini tu jam 12.30 siang. Dia bilang dateng aja jam 13.00 siang. OK! Ay bilang. Terus langsung bilang bokap gitu.
Terus tanya si dd pulang jam berapa. Bokap bilang jam 13.00. OH NOOOOOOO!!!!!
>< ARghhhhHHHH!!!ini ma sama ajah..
Ting Tong.. Jam 09.30 percis sopir pulang..Terus ay nanya lagi ma sopir nya... emang si dd minta di jemput jam brapa.. dia bilang jam 12.00.. NAH LOOHH!! Even beda 1 jam.. tapi pas gw tanya berapa lama dari kampus ke puri.l. si sopir menjawab.... sekitar 1 jam lebih gitu de neng! MATEEEEEEEE!!!!
ARGHhhhhh!!! Gak ada yg lebi hebad dari hari ini..... Ampun dahhhhh...
Terus akhir nya bokap bilang, si dd disuru pulang sendiri ato ga naek taksi.. *WADOH! Si dd bisa mara besar ama gw*..
Terus g bilang ajah.. klo tau sebentar nya ituh more than 30 menit!! Dari tadi gw dah pergi naek taksi.. HYAAAA!!! GREGETANNNN HeeeIiiiiIIIIYYYY!!!
Jadi akhirnya diputus kan..
Ay pergi ke puri pake sopir dan sopir gak bole di pake jam itoh..
Terus ade g di jemput ama bokap ay.
Fiuhh..
Semua ini bikin gw GREGETANNNN
Jadwal uda terencana semua jadi HANCUR TERCECER.. ARghhhhHHHH.... hiiiiiiyyyy...
*tendang tembok*

BUNGA MELATI

2006-09-20T21:37:00.000+09:30

Mood: 「好きなてく　愛してく」- Kinki Kids
「たたかい」

Yesterday, malem, I ngubrak ngabrik lemari n menemukan 1 dvd box set special edition.
Title: Song Zu Ying 「宋祖英」Solo Concert in The Golden Concert Hall, Vienna.
~The Fragrance of Jasmine Flower embraces The European Musical City~
One of her song titled 「茉莉花」 Mo Li Hua / Jasmine Flower.
This is interesting ya, coz one of Gary 曹格’s/ Gary Cao Ge’s song also titled in the same way (Characters). Cao Ge’s lyrics also have this phrase “好一朵美丽的茉莉花“ / “Hao yi duo mei li de mo li hua” . They both (Gary and Song Zu Ying) sang this phrase in the same melody pattern. Wow! Except that Song Zu Ying sang it in “folk” way, and Gary曹格 tends to sing it in a “pop” way.
The only fact I know is that this song is a traditional Chinese folk song. ^^’’
Ha3.. well well..

Translation of Jasmine Flowers:

What a beautiful Jasmine Flower
What a beautiful Jasmine Flower
A spray of fragrant and lovely petals
Everyone love your snow-white buds
Let me pick a Jasmine Flower
And give to others..
Jasmine Flower

「好きなてく　愛してく」..It has been a long time na since I heard this song. Might be in 2001. Hwaa..
I wonder what this song means ya. I only understand it bit by bit. -_-‘ stupid me.
Whenever I hear this song I feel warmth somehow (たたかい). Well, almost all Kinki’s song makes me feel that way
But this song gives me harder kanji .
Hehe.
“Kanjiru” 「かんじる」- “feel it” kyak iklan NIKE –nya BoA yg baru

WASURERU MONO

2006-09-19T22:46:00.000+09:30

orang biasa nya sakit pinggang. Gw kedapetan sakit punggung!!
nah loh.. kenapa coba.. ><
duduk sakit, berdiri sakit.. coba dimiringin juga sakit.. -.-'
GREAT!

HOPE(LESS)LY

2006-09-18T01:06:00.000+09:30

Fei Ni Mo Shu (Must Be You) __ By Lin Yi Chen

非你莫屬 Ost. Tokyo Juliet

懂得讓我微笑的人
Dong de rang wo wei xiao de ren

再沒有誰比你有天份
Zai mei you shei bi ni you tian fen

輕易闖進我的心門
Qi yi chuang jin wo de xin men

明天的美夢你完成
Ming tian de mei meng ni wan cheng

*整個宇宙浩瀚無邊的盡頭
Zheng ge yu zhou hao han wu bian de jin tou

每顆渺小星球
Mei ke miaou xiao xing qiu

全都繞著你走
Quan dou rao zhao ni zou

**愛我非你莫屬
Ai wo Fei ni mo shu

我只願守護由你給我的幸福
Wo zhi yuan Shou hu You ni gei wo de xing fu

愛我非你莫屬
Ai wo Fei ni mo shu

也許會笑著哭
Ye xu hui Xiao zhe ku

但那人是你所以不怕苦
Dan na ren shi ni suo yi Bu pa ku

懂得讓我流淚的人
Dong de rang wo liulei de ren

給的感動一定是最深
Gei de gan dong yi ding shi zui shen

在我心中留下傷痕
Zai wo xin zhong liu xia shang hen

你同時點亮了星辰 *
Ni tong shi dian liang le xing chen

看那麼多相遇
Kan na me duo xiang yu

偏偏只和你
Pian pian zhi he ni

天造地設般產生奇跡
Tian zao de she han chan sheng qi ji

哦我心的縫隙
(?) Wo xin de Feng Xi

我想除了你
Wo xiang chu le ni

任誰也無法填補這空虛 **
Ren shei ye wu fa tian bu zhe kong xu

TORI no youni

2006-09-17T14:05:00.000+09:30

Mood: Moments

Here I am, start again to find anything about HANA KIMI. Oh,I dunno what HANA KIMI is about. All I know it is a MANGA, and there will be 2 leading charaters there -_-'
Oh my.
Oh ya, i wanted to post BoA's Pics during LEVIS promo in HK. But, it seems my photobucket lagi error. -.-' yeah.

Anata

2006-09-17T01:17:00.000+09:30

非你莫屬 Ost. Tokyo Juliet

懂得讓我微笑的人再沒有誰比你有天份
輕易闖進我的心門明天的美夢你完成
*整個宇宙浩瀚無邊的盡頭
每顆渺小星球全都繞著你走
**愛我非你莫屬
我只願守護由你給我的幸福
愛我非你莫屬
也許會笑著哭但那人是你所以不怕苦
懂得讓我流淚的人給的感動一定是最深
在我心中留下傷痕你同時點亮了星辰 *
看那麼多相遇
偏偏只和你天造地設般產生奇跡
哦我心的縫隙
我想除了你任誰也無法填補這空虛 **

^^
This song is great. I love the melody, i love the lyrics. For me, the meaning of those phrase goes deep in me hehe.
I hope everyone hear this song! ;)
just click www.linyichen.com , and you all can hear the song. ^^

秘密

2006-09-16T23:14:00.000+09:30

Topic: 秘密 [secret]
Mood: WaT 「僕のキモチ」

ㅛㅐㅜㅎ ㅓㅁㄷ --> yong jae

Hahaha, today yah, I woke so ‘early’ T_T . I woke up at 11 am. Oh noo.. Again!
Yay!
Terus liat2 album WaT yg uda lama gw beli. Ternyata sampe sekarang gw belom nyetel denger semua lagunya >< vita ばか！ Hehe
^^’’
Terus sekarang ay pengen share ni perasaan ay sekarang..
Track nya tuh ada 13:: ほらああ！　見た！　；）
1. Boku no Kimochi
2. …
3. Sotsugyo TIME
4. Answer
5. 5 senchi
6. Hadaka
7. I will get a dream
8. Natsu hi
9. …
10. hajime no …
11. …
12. Wents TIME
13. Teppei TIME

Whoaa.. ternyata ada banyak track yg gak bias gw baca!! T_T HuiXX
I’ll go find out what those kanji means.. -.-‘’
絶対に！よしゃ!！　もうすぐすぐがんばるよ!!
（＾＾）V

Oh ya, speaking of kanji, jadi inget,
Shinji kun! ^^’’
nama korea kamu ituu kan 「yong jae」klo ditulis jadi 「ㅛㅐㅜㅎ ㅓㅁㄷ」
itu ditulis perhurufnya keluar jadi kayak gitu…
^^’’ hehehe hapal kan sajaa..
Ato klo shinji jadi :::::::::::::::::>>>
노ㅑㅝㅑ -->sh – I – nj – I (??)
Wadoh.. pilih aja.. tapi lebi keren Yong Jae Deeee...
Hihihihihihihihihihihihihihiihihi
\(^^)/

Jadi kenapa topic kali ini 秘密 ?? hahaha
Soalnya banyak hal yg belom wa ketahui .. banyak lah...
Termasuk track2 ituh.. -.-;; amit2 dah gak bisa baca…
Ellen harus bisaaa!! ;3

ONAJI

2006-09-16T00:36:00.000+09:30

kyon kyon de ii!! minna oboeteru this phrase?
taken from boku dake no madonna
Hoa.. Hao Jiu Bu Jian Le... ><

INFOS:
[watch oniyome nikki -end] --> teppei jadi orang perusak rumah tangga orang.. ampun dah.. g jadi suami nya dah g pencet2 tuh... hahahah anyways.. he had that smile as always.. ^^ OASIS...

[watch kurosagi -end] --> dvd yg terakhir nyendet2.. ampun dah.. gak jelas kurosagi nya itu menyelesaikan masalah nya gimana.. >< hehe as always, P no egao di beberapa episode terakhir bikin g kimochi ii ^^

[watch silence - end] --> Omg.. Zai2 nya.. itu komen terakhir gw begitu liat end nya... plus ARGHHH kok dia... **** (spoiler jadi g bintang2 in) hehe , even ending nya udah pada byk yg predict tetep aja wa gak nyangka ternyata pose itu yg dipikih dia.. OH.. ZAI2.. Park Eun Hye juga enak bgt, tinggal ngomong "Wo Xi Huan Ni" ama "Wo Ai Ni" and also " Qing Wei Yi" ,,,.. ampunnn..dah.. enak bgt ngomong itu doang.. ^^ hahaha

[watch shopaholic] --> yg maen cecelia cheung.. OMG, dia disini keren bgt, cantik nian... ^^ gak bisa berenti liat dia disini.. pelem ini kocak abis.. ^^ boleh klo lagi bete nonton ini..

[watch Jiang Hu] --> yg maen Andy Lau, Jacky Cheung, Shawn Yue, and Edison Chen..
cerita tentnag TRIAD gitu.. ya so-so lah.. tapi yg maen oke2h.. jadi g bela2 in.. -__-''

[watch emergency 24 hours] --> yg maen Nanako Matsushima, ama Eguchi sapa gitu.. lupa,, pernah maen di Tokyo Love Stories ^^''
Overal.. ini drama gak bisa di compare ama iryu.. lebi ke N's AOI gitu d.. tapi N'AOI masi lebi bae.. jadi gimana ya.. I give 6 over 10 for this movie. Cerita nya yg bikin wa melotot pas pasien yg pertama ama yg terakhir... ^^ boleh juga lah

YUPSIE!!
need to find other dramas... sugu ni..

Roses

2006-09-10T23:46:00.000+09:30

Hari ini ya..
dirumah... nonton WTC. Peringatan 9/11 begitu banyak di Metro TV. About ground zero, about the two towers, about, the pentagon. WOW.. Gak percaya aja uda berapa taon tuh sejak kejadian itu.
Now, wa dapet CD yg menarik dari Pak Lien ;) tentang motivasi gitu deh. Ada 10 wisdom gitu deh. Mereka pake petuah2 cina gitu terus ada cerita2 cina jaman baheula diselingi ama musik2 cina klasik. WOW! Gw sukaa sekali! ^^V
CD ini kasi tau klo kamu klo punya mimpi, jangan takut bermimpi, jangan takut mengambil keputusan, pikirkanlah matang2 dan jangan takut jatuh, coz pain and hurt itu bagian dari kekuatan yg akan kamu miliki. Klo kamu gak pernah jatuh dan merasakan sakit, maka kamu tidak akan pernah jadi kuat.
Hari ini juga g liat tentang pencerahan gitu *Catholic*:: dibilang "kamu ngak akan tahu cinta sejati, sampai kamu terluka karenanya"

WOW! hari ini bener2 spesial bwt wa ^^

selama ini kalo g nemuin tembok masalah gw selalu cari jalan berputar, cari jalan lain. Sebenernya itu kurang bener.. ato lebih tepat nya gak bener. Karena gw gak bener2 ngadepin masalah2 nya, karena ini semua wa akan tetep fragile. Woow!
Oleh karena itu, wa janji, gak takut sakit lagi, akan wa hadapi semua nya.
Wa juga gak takut lagi bermimpi. Wa mao jadi wanita seperti Estee Lauder or Hamasaki Ayumi ^^'' *looh* hahaha
Mouu Ganbarimasyouu YOSHHH
SEMANGAT ELLEN!!!!!!!! (^-^)/
FIGHTiNg!

Yume

2006-09-08T02:19:00.000+09:30

Hoh...
susah bener yah...
iri de gw ama si anu dan si ono... ^^'' *cant tell names here*
What will you do if your life hanya tinggal 3 bulan?

^^V
Mood: Qing Fei De Yi _Harlem Yu

Jin Tian

2006-09-07T01:16:00.000+09:30

Hoahhh
hari ini baru kelar nonton Shen Qing Mi Ma [SILENCE], WHoaaa, SUGEEE
ZAI2 keren banget disini... walopun gw bukan pnggemar f4.. tapi harus diakui.. segi cerita PLUS ZAI2, MEGAN LAI, and PARK EUN HYE bikin gw pantengin ini drama molo..
huixxx
ending nya bakal gimana yah... gw baru nonton ampe eps 14... T_T tidak jelas..
cende tidak jelassssss BLASSSSS

akhir2 ini... gw nonton drama yg berhubungan ama masa kecil sepasang manusia.. OMG...
masa lalu mereka ketika kecil indah bener yahhh
nama nya juga PELEM len... T_T
kalog w.. yg paling gw inget..
gw mecahin mangkok di kelas.. terus dmasukin kadnang ayam... di kerubungin anak2 1 sekolahan.. gilaaaaa
terus dicium sama 1 cowok *anak kecil seumuran waktu ituh* yg sampe sekarang gw gak tau dia itu sapa.. T_T oh nooo
masa kecil kuuu

ya begitu d

hahahahahhaha

this time

2006-08-26T00:06:00.000+09:30

Hohohoho...
season kali ini adalah SUMMER!!!! WHOAAAA...
I love summer the MOST!!!
anyway.. next time i will post the list of new releases PV in this summer...
i love em all...
^^
*CHUUUUU*

sabishi III

2006-08-21T20:59:00.003+09:30

SKY

I stretch out my hand out to the high clear sky,
as the sunlight shines on my whole body
My chest is pounding with excitment
as I have an unforgettable summer
because you are here with me.

I push aside my pain and hurt
and face tomorrow only holding onto freedom

Because the sun is above us right now shining endlessly,
Believe me, this summer isn't gonna end til eternity.
It's all right to keep enjoying those feelings you like, everything's all right
We can do anything, reaching out for the hot world.

At the place the southern wind blows, on the road I saw you earlier,
there's a wavering mirage.
This dream is to help us take a step forward
with a strong heart.

I have no choice, under tonights evening sun,
I'll give it my all and open the door.

Looking up at the sky, looking down at the ocean
we're over there, living.
I believe you that we'll miraculously meet this summer
I'll soar thru it and laugh it out if I'm with you, everything's all right
Let's head towards that endless clear sky.

Because the sun is above us right now shining endlessly,
Believe me, this summer isn't gonna end til eternity.
It's all right to keep enjoying those feelings you like, everything's all right.
We can do anything, reaching out for the hot world.

lyrics: www.boajjang.com

sabishi III

2006-08-21T20:59:00.002+09:30

sabishi II

2006-08-21T20:59:00.001+09:30

KEY OF HEART (English Version)
Words: Kenn Kato

La la la la la la
La la la la la la

Though we are in love
Sometimes we do hurt each other dry and cry
Everyone has a such experience

I don't know the reason why
I could not find the word to get you back
And I turned my back to you going out
I don't want love your love in fact

Looking for the word
Just a simple word
To open up closing door of your heart
But it's hard to say for me I'm sorry
I don't loose my faith
I don't loose my nerve
Let me go to see you to say the word
Not to be afraid to face the fear
Is the key of heart

I believe in love, two hearts
I believe in love, two hearts

Thousands of your smile
Getting back when I look back on those days of us
Now I feel they are still calling me

Maybe you're the same as me
Searching for the chance to make it up now
I believe you to be waiting for me
I'll be with you shortly

Looking for the word
Just a simple word
To open up closing door of my heart
Let me try to say just once I'm sorry
Now I close my eyes
Wishing for your smile
My heart beat is synchronize with your one
Not to make up my mind to reach you
Is the key of heart

To meet in this world
Is just a wonder
Now I want to say I was born to love,
full in love with you,
live in your future
Open up your door
Wrap me in your arms
Let me dive into your heart once again
To try to keep our story going on
Is the key of heart

La la la la la la
La la la la la la

sabishi

2006-08-21T20:59:00.000+09:30

aneh ya...
kangen tapi tiap kali di telpon pasti kita berantem... dan itu gara2 g nya duluan emosi...
berapa kali pun adegan ini di ulang g tetap jadi di sisi itu... selalu yg jadi marah2...

berapa banyak keberanian yg harus g kumpulin untuk bilang bahwa g ini gak hanya kangen... tapi kesepian...
menyedihkan...

semua emosi itu... marah2... ngomel2... semua terasa hangat ... goblok benar...
sekarang... rasa nya dingin...
g butuh pembangkit semangat...
harus dengan apa lagi g tutupin kesepian ini...
teman... jalan2... baju... senyum... drama...
ha...

begitu penakut nya gw samapi ingein membangun mimpi di atas mimpi... begitu rapuh..
goblok..

berapa banyak keberanian yg harus g ambil untuk mengakui ini semua...
apa g harus hanya tutup mata dan telinga.. pretending ...

kamu lagi mikir g tu hanya butuh kamu sewaktu2...
setiap waktu buth kamu.. tapi g berusaha tidak menyusahkan kamu...
tidak memperlihatkan klo g butuh... tapi klo udah gak tahan... baru d... ok g nyerah...
dan dengan sukses nya g malah bikin seperti g buth lo sewktu2 aja...
hah... vita kamu hebat bener...
kesepian tiap waktu...
depresi....

mungkinkah nanti g bakal jadi kayak dia...
hah...
atau memang seharusnya seperti itu...
jadi... sekarang apa g lagi mimpi ..

i hope u didn't read this...
this is ... just... not right...

bwt Li Tian Sen... ;)

2006-08-08T01:32:00.000+09:30

Hoeeehhh...
1 jam lagi bapak ulang taonnnn...
hepi B'day yaaa...

Myspace Layouts

Moga2 bapak menjadi orang yg lebi dewasa lagee... bisa lebi sabar lage ngadepin gw... (loh?!) hahahaha
Luv U always...

muachhh.. ^^V
God Bless anta...
*hugzzz*

what I've learned from you...

2006-08-03T00:04:00.000+09:30

In order to gain something, you must present something of equal value. That is the principle of Equivalent Trade.
But there is no principle that can explain its existence. Not even the principle of Equivalent Trade.
But we still believe that one cannot gain something without paying the price.
The pain we endured must have been the price for something else.
We also believe that by paying the price of hard work, we can gain something.

Equivalent Trade is not a principle of the world....

SANDS

2006-07-25T22:02:00.000+09:30

hari ini kata ade gw agnes monica ama jerry yan bakal ada di tv gitu jam 10 malem.. ^^ hohohohohoh
mau liattttt

hari ini juga.. masalah tutup panci yg pecah meledak ke udara...
matilah gw...
bokap marah2 gitu...
adudududududududududududud
-.-''
*basically dia ga tau.. tapi dia uda nuduh2 gitu...*
sakit ati gw...

udah dulu ya...
perut g mules...
besok g lanjutin lagi...
ja~ :D

OSCE

2006-07-24T15:18:00.000+09:30

Huah...
OSCE itu susah benerrrr...
ampun dah..
padahal simple... tapi detil nya yg harus sistematis itu yg bikin gw SEBALLLLL!!
-__-''
kayak nya gw gagal...
bwah
ada 18 stations tadi which consist 16 station OSCE ama 2 statins istirahat..
g bener2 having nervous break down tadi.. in my first 4 station i was ruining em all..
-__-'' I dont know what to do.. i dont know what to report.. ai even not knwoing what to pick from the table...
I had difficulities concentrating my mind to stay FOCUS and alert during first 4 station..
it was HELL...

but then.. I overcome it bit by bit..
by the time station 6 come.. everything starts to slow down.. and it makes me relieved.. T_T
thank GOD..

BUT again.. the LAST station also HELL...
pasien nya mengalami trauma fratur di lengan kiri atas.. disertai dengan EDEMA sebesar kepalan tangan pada trisep nya... T_T
di haruskan melakukan pemeriksaan fisik kepada nya. diketahui bahwa pasien ini tnada vital nya normal.. dan dia baru saja mengalami kecelakaan di jalan raya gitu...
ya uda g lakukan pemerikasaan fisik dengan dimulai dari INSPEKSI(.. g li9at.. penampang sepertinya menonjol keluar .. warna kulit di sekitar benjolan pucat.. terdapat nyeri tekan pada perabaan di daerah benjolan...gitu2...
terus tiba2 dokter nya bilang...
saya bilang pemerikasaan fisik... periksa dong fisik nya..
buka laporan yg saya mao..
OMG!!!!!
T_T
jujur.. ini gak pernah diajarin ama CCM.. so to be honest i didnt know exactly what to perform towards the patient.. T_T
He (the patient) can not move her hand backwards, forewards, flexion.. he just kept extent his arm towards me... -.-''
jadi ya uda.. g pegang tangan nya.. g bilang... otot2 tangan nya bekerja dengan baik...
terus dia bilang.. apa lagi hayooo..
g bingung.. BENGONG terus sampe akhir nya bel berbunyi.. -.-''

baru d dikasitau..
kalo mesti nya g periksa kapilerisasi pada kuku2 nya.. perikasa arteri radialis nya... ama raba hipotenar ama tenar nya...T_T
How am I supposed to know dammit!!
-__-'' ccM DID TOLD ME THE EXAMINTAIONS...
BUT CCM DID NOT TOLD ME WHEN TO PERFORM THIS "kapilerisasi".. -__-''
Huh...

ampun...

REMED REMED d...

badan g tambah gak enak..
tapi udah lebi mendingan soalnya OSCE uda kelar walo g yakin akan remed...
><

GOD.. bless me..

NERE posting di FS lagi.. ^^ hehehe

2006-07-23T18:50:00.000+09:30

Mood: 肕
Song: Tsunami _ Southern all stars

g termasuk orang yg demen baca tulisan2 and posting2an nya si nere... ^^
dari jaman duluuu sekali pas dia baru2 nge-blog ampe beberapa bulan yg lalu.. *sekarang g uda jarang baca blog nya...* -.- sori nere...

dan ternyata salah satu postingan di FS bilang kalo X-men ama Pirates of the carribian ito ada sambungan nya lagi di end credits nya.. T_T ahhh.. siyalll

anyway... talking bout what lies beneath.. g merasa ugly...
kepala gw mulai bermunculan sentence2 yg di mulai dengan "WHAT IF..."
this is BAD...

lemas, mual, mau muntah.. sekarang napas aja sakit... -__-''
aku kena penyakit apa lagi TUHAN...
padahal besok ada ujian OSCE ama POMR. G malah dah bikin janji ama Boe bwt belajr bareng ma anak2 di rumah nya dia, which starts at 7pm I guess..

If only I could ORB myself ... If only I could read peoples mind... and if only I could cast a spell... evrything would be much2 easier ya..
*inilah hasil nya kalo terlalu banyak nonton CHARMED... -__-'''*

Tze... kamu gimana? kok ga ada kabar lagi ya? T_T
apa kamu dah balik dari SIN? >< kabar-kabari daku dung-dung..
kaktus nya juga jangan mati ya say.. ;) hehehe

His b'day is coming... and still.. g masi bingung mao ngasi apa.....
Her b'day juga coming... and juga g masi bingung...

itu dua orang ulang taon nya juga cuma beda 1 hari.. -__-'' bwah.. ^^ bisa2 nya..
hahha
anyway.. lets hope that i end up with some good things on my hand ya..

sodara-sodara ku sebangsa dan setanah air.. *yg ga setanah air juga masuk ding*
badan gw sekarang mulai agak panas... jadi... g akhiri dulu postingan gw untuk hari ini...
mau istirahat dulu..
lets hope for the best shall we...

肕

ER HA

2006-07-21T13:56:00.000+09:30

OMG.. ini klinik keren bgt...

GRACE

2006-07-17T09:51:00.000+09:30

GRACE =
1. Seemingly effortless beauty or charm of movement, form, or proportion.
2. A characteristic or quality pleasing for its charm or refinement.
3. A sense of fitness or propriety.
4. a. A disposition to be generous or helpful; goodwill.
b. Mercy; clemency.
5. A favor rendered by one who need not do so; indulgence.
6. A temporary immunity or exemption; a reprieve.
7. Graces Greek & Roman Mythology. Three sister goddesses, known in Greek mythology as Aglaia, Euphrosyne, and Thalia, who dispense charm and beauty.
8. a. Divine love and protection bestowed freely on people.
b. The state of being protected or sanctified by the favor of God.
c. An excellence or power granted by God.
9. A short prayer of blessing or thanksgiving said before or after a meal.
10. Grace Used with His, Her, or Your as a title and form of address for a duke, duchess, or archbishop.
11. Music. An appoggiatura, trill, or other musical ornanment in the music of 16th and 17th century England.

Source: The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition
Copyright © 2000 by Houghton Mifflin Company.
Published by Houghton Mifflin Company. All rights reserved.
[http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/grace]

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Grace

The person who lived the same moments and spilled the same tears as her would not leave my heart…

It’ll really be alright
Even if we lose this foolish love
It’ll be alright in the end
I fixed up my heart, fixed my make up
I went alone to the place that I went with you
With unfaltering steps and a reddened face, a good day to forgot you
It’s all right if I shed a few tears
So that all the sadness will be washed away
I am now going to be free
Love, love go far away…
You left me, the one who shed tears for you
On that day I climbed to the top and cried out your name
Even those sediments of memories
Today I take a deep breath and spit them out
A good day to forget you
It’s all right if I shed a few tears
So that all the sadness will be washed away
I am now going to be free
It isn’t a big deal to forget
But now my yearning has become apparent
What should one do?
It’s all right if I shed a few tears
So that all the sadness will be washed away
It’s all right if I shed a few tears
So that all the sadness will be washed away
I am now going to be free
My love, please leave me…
So that I wont try to catch you again…

Taken from the music video that i watched last nite.. -.-''
i forgot the name of the person who translate this and put it in to the MV..
T_T
forgive me..
I'll credit you loh..

=========================================

now my feelings ya...
^^;

MOOD: SAD
MUSIC: GRACE - lee sou young

Tiba2 jadi mikir aja.. gimana kalo ada orang yg ngalamin kayak di mv grace itu..
Whoaa...
I can not tell the pain... and the sadness nya.. ><

Kalo ditinjau dari sudut pandang cewe yg suka dia >< *yg liat dia ptamakali pas acara pengumpulan dana itu*… dibilang suka iya… tapi dia harus ended suka nya itu secara paksa dari diri sendiri..she have to.. if there’s any option… I bet she will do the same as the 1st girl that gave her eye to jung ki… T_T

Klo di tinjau dari cewe yg kasi mata nya ke jung ki… hoaaa…
Dunia ini.. apa yg sebenarnya dunia ini mau sama gw.. apa yg dunia ini mau kasi tau gw?
Pertanyaan seperti itu mungkin yg akan muncul kali ya...
Kalo g liat lagi.. sic ewe uda rela aja ngasi jungki tapi…
Hoaa... akan tetep sayang selaluw... -.-‘’

Klo di tinjau dari sisi jung ki… -__-‘’ini berat boo
Lebi tepat nya g gak gitu ngerti apa yg jungki feels...
Dia sebenernya suka siapa sie? >< gak jelas...
Kyk na dia kaget gitu begitu si CEWE a ini suka dia... hoa...
Terus kyk na dia lebi perhatian gitu ama cewe yg kasi mata ke dia.. *ya iyalah... -__-*
Whoaaa...
Gak ngerti dah... susah...

Whoever yg punya masalah kyk gitu...
I pray for the best for the 3 of you…
God pasti punya rencana bwt kita juga…
Bukan berarti kita gak bias ngelawan…
Kita bole berusaha… tetep Tuhan juga yg ngasi jalan nya…
And I believe.. its all happen for reasons and I hope that is for the best…

CHARMED !!

2006-07-15T20:29:00.000+09:30

today .. the only thing that Im doing was watching CHARMED season 6.. ^^
ternyata itu pelem bagus bener... *maap*
huee..
i never felt so much fun seeing western drama before... ever since T_T
hahaha
trus juga g keracunan KEEPSAKE nya tze.. -.-''
WHOAAA.. I gotta get 'em .. but where? in 2 manggoes I suppose..
hihehehe

anyway...
kata nya bapak si simprat dateng ke indo ya?
uda g hub hp nya tapi gak ada balasan... -_-''
*jadi sebenernya dia ada dimana ya?*
padahal ada barang yg mo g titipin bwt dia...
T_T
hmm...
speaking of where.. moga2 seseorang yg sekarang ada di singapore bae2 aja...
moga2 an semua nya lancar dan fine..
All da best for you sis.. ><
oya.. ama thx tze bwt IRYU nyaaa.. *especially to her KOKO ^^ hiehhehehe*
*bows*.. i cant wait to watch IRYU..~~ *HIYA~~~~~*
hahahahaha

uda dulu d...
paha g digigitin nyamuk disini...
*oh.. so irritating nyamuk2 nya.... ARGHHH~~~*

aku melihat ichi litre.. ><

2006-07-14T19:33:00.000+09:30

hari ini tu ya.. g ada program bwt belajar muskulo ama neuro.. garis bawah nya physical exam bwt memeriksa neuro nya...
awal nya boring...
sampe tiba2 dokter nya mergain cara untuk memeriksa cerebelum.. T_T
HAIYAAA~~~ dia bilang ke kita orang... "pasien kalian ntar disuru pegang idung nya terus suru dia tunjuk telunjuk kalian ... lakukan ini dari pelan ke cepat... perhatikan.. bila terdapat kesalahan penempatan jari ... makan dapat dipastikan ada ke abnormalan pada cerebelum nya..."...
T_T
itu sangat ichi litre sekaleee...

apalagi pas pergaan yg pasien nya disuru jinjit terus di perhatiin cara berjalan nya...
OMG... g shock.. g malah pikir g lagi mimpiin ichi litre ya?? koq mirip amt?? ><
HIYAAA~~

intinya...
g akhir nya me.ihat sendiri cara seorang dokter memeriksa seseorang yg diduga menderita cerebelar degeneration diseases.. T_T
haiyaaaa...
sedihnya.. *soalnya selama pelajaran itu g jadi inget AYA molo... -___-''*

hm...
g beneran kepengen buku ichi litre nya si AYA... T_T
tapi aku malah menemukan yg bahasa jepun nya.. MAAAKK
gak ngerti blassss!!!!
moga2 an g ketemu buku ichi litre yg bhs inggris di melbourne... ><
amien..

btw, pas g pulang.. pala g kelliyengan gitu...
tanah goyang2 lebih keras dari yg g pernah lamai sebelomnya... ><
apa g kekurangan darah lebih banyak lagi sekarang kah?
-__-''
atashi no karada... doushite??
><

anyway...
TEPPEI punya movie loh... LOVELY COMPLEX..
T-T
hiks hiks..
dan ternyata2 celaka dua belassss... komik lovely complex itu pernah terbit di indo...
tapi g gak tau.. dan gak pernah nyimak.. sekarang malah pas g cari udah ga ada dimana2.. -.-''
DAME DA!!!!....
T-T
hiks hiks

huaaa...
tamba kangen ama bapak... T-T
beliin g boneka loh di sana... Udah janji loh yg GUEDEEEEEE buanget... huahahahaha
*tertawa puas* hehehehe...
miss u

uda dulu ah...
pala g mala tamba pusing...
gawat gawat...
oh obat2 kuw.. dimanakah keberadaan diri muwww???
><

IRNA B - MMC - PHARMACY

2006-07-10T18:26:00.000+09:30

hari ini...g ke IRNA B *instalasai rawat inap B -penyakit dalam*...
kesana tu mao BEDSIDE teaching gitu d...
terus dapet nya pasien yg kena liver abcess... hehehe
so far so good la... trus kita orang perform physical exam ke pts nya.. trs diagnose kira2 differential diagnosis nya apa aja... dst.dst.. ^^
nah.. yg bikin g terkejut... ada pasien.. *g curiga dia kena DM sie*.. uda kurus terus item... tergeletak di belakang kanan gw.. -di ranjang sie...* terus ngos2 gitu...
itu masi blm seberapa sampe para suster dateng bwt mandiin dia... *atu apalah itu*... pas dibalik ternyata ada ulcer gede bgt di balik pinggang belakang nya dia.. T_T OMG... and itu berbau bgt... -__- aduuu...
trs anak2 pada liat kan.. trs nanya ama dokter pengtasuh kita.. "kena apa tu dok?" trus doketer nya bilang itu kena Ulcerative collitis.. >.> trus kita orang pada... hmmm...
diem2 aja...
but SHOCK...
it is really my first time sees a person like that right in front of me.. T_T *GOD.. give me streght*
T_T...

trus hari ini ke MMC... nemuin dokter RUDI... ada surat dari embassy yg dia mesti baca... dan ternyata isinya embassy minta gw perform plain photo thorax lagi but it must be on september the 9th.. which is exactly 4 months after my 1st chest x-ray... =.=
hoaaaaa...
ya udah lahh... yang penting visa gw keluarrrr... T_T

siang nya jam 1 ke farmasi...sempet nyasar gak tau gedung nya yg mana =.=
oh nooooooo... *pusinnng*...
disana di ajarin bikin obat.. campuran2 obat nya.. ngebedain obat2.gitu...
terus untuk pertama kali nya juga g liat OBAT BWT DIMASUKIN KE VAGINAAA... @o@'''
WOW!!!!
itu kapsul GEEEDEEEEE dan seperti peluru... bahkan lebi gede dari yg bwt PANTAD T_T *maksud gw anus*
terus g penasaran tooo.. jadi g buka d.... dan ternyata itu licin booo... *kampungan mode ON*.. kalo dipgang leleh gitu di tangan...
trus dokter nya ketawa gitu liat gw.. dia terus langsung ke belakang terus bawain bwt kita orang kapsul VAGINA yg terbuat dari COKLAT PUTIHH!!! WOW!!!!!!!
WHITE CHOCO~~.. Aiyaaaaaa...
pas g pegang.. dingin dingin...
terus g cium2.. bau nya kayak coklat loh... ^^
hihihihihi

eh udah dulu ya.. labkom mo tutup nie T_T
ntar g lanjutin lageee...

_ini g copy paste dari e-mail gw bwt pak alidjaja_ ^^

ANGEL's SONG

2006-06-14T00:34:00.000+09:30

Escaping into nights, I told myself
That I was not at all alone
But after all, it revealed
Nothing but my loneliness day by day

On my way home from the bustle of the city
Though it was no different from any other day
I thought I would repeat such pattern of life
And tears welled up suddenly

Feeling weak and wretched
Uneasy and lonely
I wanted some warmth
In a faint voice

*But it's certain you appeared suddenly
And a ray of light shone in my darkness
You smiled a little, told me it was all right with a nod
Took my hand and started to walk

I saw an angel's wings on your back

It was not because I wanted to be dull to pain
That I wished to be strong

I was helped and supported by you
We gave and forgave each other
I got what I wanted to protect
On that day

**Sometimes you are too unprotected
And come face to face with me with all your might
It's so much dazzling
That I even spare the time of a blink

You have an angel's wings on your back

* (repeat)

** (repeat)

You have an angel's wings on your back

I heartily hope that you will not be
A victim of this sad age
I sing this song today just as I pray
So that my dearest wish may reach you

beautiful day

2006-06-14T00:26:00.001+09:30

Every time we come to a fork in the road
We choose one and go forward
But the other way we didn't choose
Always looks so bright
Why?

When you hesitate over a choice, surely
You already know
That you are just hesitating to choose the answer you want to choose

It's a Beautiful Day
It's a Beautiful Day
You don't have to be afraid

We are scared of tomorrow
Because we are so anxious about what we haven't yet seen
But if tomorrow is too obvious to see
It's so much boring
Don't you think so?

It's easy to get a beautiful moment, but
You already know
That you can't get beautiful things just by being beautiful

What journey will you make
In your limited time?

by hamasaki ayumi , credits to divine a y u

teens

2006-06-14T00:26:00.000+09:30

I wanna be a sweet angel

I won't return, I haven't thought about wanting to return
I'll only chase after beautiful things in my dreams
The morning scenery shows that it snowed
I don't really understand the truth
It's too beautiful

(I wanna be a sweet angel)
I was always hurt at that time
(I wanna be a sweet angel)
I cried then

I can see the constellations in the high sky
and believe in love in this cold air
It isn't a shortcut
I was interrupted
But since someone said this was good
I'll hang in there a little longer

I won't forget the person that I loved

If I became an angel and got my wings
And I could go anywhere,
Where would I go?

But I wouldn't return to that time
Even though I long for it
That day was long ago,
beautiful,
and I'll always cherish it

_by hamasaki ayumi, credits to divine a y u_

2006-06-14T00:12:00.001+09:30

dasar ...
gw ini kenapa lagii...
kenapa ngeliatin poto FS kamu bikin g nangis lagi si pak?... argh...
dasar wanitaaa...
sebel...
sebell..

YOSH...
jgn keluarin aer mata laggeeee!!!!
YOSHAAAA!!
FIGHTINGGG
...

aku,,

2006-06-14T00:12:00.000+09:30

aku ini kurang tegas yah...
maka nya bikin bingung orang2 di sekitar gw...
maafin g minna...
moga2 dengan jatoh kedalam kesalahan kayak gini g jadi belajar gak akan ulangin kesalahan ini lagi...

g harus lebi tega... lebi tegas...
lebih pasti dalam ambil keputusan...
AMIN...
lindungilah aku ya TUHANku... m( _ _ )m

DBSK - INSA

2006-06-13T23:51:00.000+09:30

Parami momun
Keushikan jocha
Naehken neomu
Mojarankeol

Hanbeoneh miso
Majimak insa
Sarnghamnida..keudae

Shikaneh jichyeodo
Sarangeh apado
Keushikan jocha
Chueokigo
Majimak insal haneyoh
Saranghamnida
Saranghamnida

Fly away
Fly away
Love
ooo...
Fly away
Fly away
Love

Fly away
Fly away
Love

Nae saengeh tananbeone saranga
Annyeong

Credits to sr33theart

jawaban yg setengan2... T_T

2006-06-13T23:28:00.000+09:30

hh...
jadi dia bete gara2 e-mail reply g...
ya emang g yg salah... sori...
g gak bermaksud kasi hanbun hanbun juga...
tiba2 lo nawarin... ok si... tapi g lebi prefer cewe...
cuma gak mao nyakitin lo... ternyata dengan nulis jawaban kyk gt malah lebi bingungin ya... T_T
ellen begooo...
hh... BLOON bgt si kamu len...
hh...
g sekarang malah nyusahin... -___-'' arghhh...
to be honest...
he is my last option misal nya g dah ga ada tempat lagi bwt temporary... even g mao bgt tinggal ama dia.. tapi .. klo ketauan bokap urusan berabe dah... dia bisa lebih dari di usir dari rumah... ><'' kan bokap pasti telpon2 .. klo malem2 tiba2 ada suara cowo... maak... g mesti nah... g mesti omong apah -_-
(g gak mao bilang you are my last option... maka nya g jadi berbelit2... -__-'''
takut nya dia sakit hati jadi the last option... karena g tetep prefer tinggal ama cewe... tapi klo uda ga ada pilihan laen yg ama dia)
ellen.. kamu bodoh sekali...
BODOHHH...

what a day...

2006-06-13T22:09:00.001+09:30

pernah ngalamin kyk gini ga...
hari ini g sengaja bangun agak pagi... bwt nuggu telepon kabar dari melb uni agent... g tunggu dari jam 9... teru... sambil makan.. g taro hp g depan muka g... terus... ternyata uda jam 10... terus g bikin laporan ila... terus g tungguin... ternyata uda jam 11.. terus g tunggu lagi... ternyat uda jam 11.45...
ngak ada kabar...
pikiran g mulai aneh2...
-sorry...
g dah tau bakal kyak gini kenapa masih panik ya?
g juga dah tau bahwa semua itu yg terjadi pasti untuk yg terbaik... tapi kenapa g masih panik... g masih takut... apa sih yg g takutin..
setelah g telusuri... mungkin g takut MENDENGAR keputusannya.. apalagi klo itu keputusan tidak sesuai sama harapan gw... even g dah bilang ama diri g sendiri... "pergi ke melb ato ga tanggal 15 june itu sama2 baik kok vit... tenang... tipen juga bilang gitu... tenaglah vit..." tetep aja...
perasaan panik itu masi ada...

akhir nya jam 11.55 g telpon APRIL *orang agent melb uni di indo*... yg angkat telpon ternyata bukan dia.. tapi susan.. dan ternyata susan ini orang yg suka bolak balik disuru ama mereka (denok n april) untuk ngecek status anak2 UI di embassy ausie... terus g tanya status g gimana disana... dia bilang masi di OFFICER med cek up... entah di canbera entah di jakarta... besok dia mao coba cek lagi...
dan g juga tanya... selaen g, teren, iqbal, mirel, ama abbi.. siapa aja yg udah bisa berangkat... terus dia bilang... semua nya duah kok... kecuali abbi ama gw... klko abbi soalnya dia telat kasi aplikasi nya.. kalo g masalah medis nya...
nah si teren uda berangkat loh pak... dia cuman disuru ngelengkapin form khusus gitu gak tau apaan... nah klo g belom ada kabar...
g bener2 takut dengar keputusan ini...
-___-''
berat badan g 2 hari ini turun 2 kilo... kemaren padahal masi 50,5kg.. sekarang 50 persis...
-_-''
hh.. perasaan berat banget... bawaan nya pengen nangis mulu... ><
sebel...
g tiap kangen cuma cium bau yg ttinggal di jaket itu doang;....dan dengan bego nya malah nagis ampe tertidur... -_-'' siyal nya bokap g liat g tidur kyak gitu... terus dia nanya itu jaket sapah... -__-'' ya udah... g bilang itu jaket g... *kn uda dikasi k g kan pak... ^^*.. hehehe...

hhaaa... wat a day..
klo emang g mesti KULTUR 2 BULAN... BILANG HARI INI KENAPA?? T-T
g dah putus asa...
g mao banget bilang k orang2 g gak putus asa... tapi tiap kali uda kelar ngomong itu.. kok rasa nya g semakin kehilangan harapan... hhh...
g dah gak tau mesti ngomong apah...

hari ini... g berbuat bodoh lagi... e-mail yg g tulis bwt dia bikin dia down... T_T
Oh TUHAN ku... kenapa ini... aku gak bermaksud demikian... argh...

abis ini apalagi yg mao nimpa gw?? T-T

2006-06-09T19:52:00.000+09:30

hoah.. T-T
bosaaan...
KAMISAMA.... help me out please.. i need to go on june 15 right a way... T-T
i need to go to MELBOURNE.... T-T
GoD... PlEaSe......

kono HI wa... -__- chotto taihen desuuu

2006-06-09T19:45:00.000+09:30

Your Japanese Name Is...

Kaede Yamada

What's your Japanese Name?

Your Birthdate: August 1

You are a natural born leader, even if those leadership talents haven't been developed yet.
You have the power and self confidence to succeed in life, and your power grows daily.
Besides power, you also have a great deal of creativity that enables you to innovate instead of fail.
You are a visionary, seeing the big picture instead of all of the trivial little details.

Your strength: Your supreme genius

Your weakness: Your inappropriate sensitivity

Your power color: Gold

Your power symbol: Star

Your power month: January

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Disappointed .. very much..

2006-06-05T13:34:00.000+09:30

MooD: Kecewa..

Hari ini baru dapet kabar... tepat nya GW yg KEJAR KABAR... dan kabar itu bilang...
"oh... kamu alvita ya... Visa kamu ketahan tuh... baru bisa dapet kabar lagi tanggal 13... itu paling cepet... ada masalah kesehatan..."
DANG!!!!
-__-''
siyal...
padahal g dah pernah bilangin... semua usaha g selama ini kasi2 ke orang ttg my past x-ray gak berhasil toh...
malah dokter MMC bilang... "oh... klo ini X-ray kamu 2 years ago... saya bisa bantu kirimin ini ke CANBERA..."... HAH????!!!
Mimpi apa gw....

TUHAN ku... tolonglah aku....
Hah...
sedih

my new pet... ^^''

2006-05-30T01:02:00.000+09:30

adopt your own virtual pet!

TADAAA!!!
ini dia my new pet...
dapet link nya dari rukawa... ^^
thx yooooo ^0^
*kasi tanda peace ke ryaaaaa*

Quote of the day

2006-05-26T22:31:00.000+09:30

Bermimpilah tentang apa yang ingin kamu impikan, pergilah ke tempat-tempat kamu ingin pergi. Jadilah seperti yang kamu inginkan, karena kamu hanya memiliki satu kehidupan dan satu kesempatan untuk melakukan hal-hal yang ingin kamu lakukan.

bleeding

2006-05-22T23:57:00.000+09:30

I am ... insane...
i think... im back to where i be in the past...
those thoughts coming like waves...
i think too much...
I am willing to hurt myself...
i wonder if its gonna make me feel better...
This feelings drive me to insanity...
i can not share things easily...
i even talk to differents people with differents masks...
i wonder who am I now...
I wear too many masks...

Im facing an irony that could be possibly described as ... *i dont know the word...*

I've ever heard someone told me this phrase...
" i hate being weak.. thats why ..i want to be stroger in every single day...G bangga jadi kuat... bahkan sampai sejauh ini... but ..kadang2.. jadi kuat ituh gak enak2 bgt... sometimes u wish u are not this strong..."

Irony isnt it?

Have u ever feel this way?

2006-05-22T22:34:00.001+09:30

o God...
I feel dying..

g harap semua berjalan lancar2 ajah...
i still do not know where im gonna stay in melb...
THATS BAD.. T-T
i also have not YET contact the ticketing... agent? T-T BAD...
my father asked me to booked one of the flight together with friends...
well...
i hope i still got the place ya...
GOD...

kono "kimochi" wa chotto ...
sono kanji na kimochi wa ii ka na?? or warui ka na??
donna kimochi wa GOOD?
Shiranai ... wakaranai..
dare mo... oshiete kudasai

I am Dying... can i breath??

2006-05-22T22:34:00.000+09:30

Do You KnOw???
1.Orang yang mencintai kamu tdk pernah bisa memberikan alasan kenapa ia mencintai kamu.
yang ia tahu di matanya hanya ada kamu satu2nya.

2.Kalau kamu sudah memiliki pacar atau kekasih ia tidak perduli, buat dia yang penting kamu bahagia dan kamu tetap impiannya.

3.Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu menerima kamu apa adanya, dimatanya kamu selalu yang tercantik walaupun mungkin kamu merasa berat badan kamu sudah berlebihan atau kamu merasa kegemukan :P.

4.Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu ingin tahu tentang apa saja yang kamu lalui sepanjang hari ini, ia ingin tahu kegiatan kamu.

5.Orang yang mencintai kamu akan mengirimkan sms seperti "selalmat pagi", "slmt hari minggu", "selamat tidur" walaupun kamu tidak membalas pesannya.

6.Kalau kamu berulang tahun dan kamu tidak mengundangnya setidaknya ia akan menelpon utk mengucapkan selamat atau mengirim pesan.

7.Orang yang mencintai kamu akan selalu mengingat setiap kejadian yang ia lalui bersama kamu, bahkan mungkin kejadian yang kamu sendiri sudah lupa setiap detailnya karena, saat itu ialah sesuatu yang berharga untuknya.

8.Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu mengingat tiap kata2 yang kamu ucapkan bahkan mungkin kata2 yang kamu sendiri lupa pernah mengatakannya.

9.Orang yang mencintai kamu akan belajar menyukai lagu-lagu kesukaanmu, bahkan mungkin meminjam CD/cassette kamu, karena ia ingin tahu kesukaanmu, kesukaanmu kesukaannya juga.

10.Kalau terakhir kali kalian bertemu kamu sedang sakit mungkin flu, terkilir, atau sakit gigi, beberapa hari kemudian ia akan mengirim sms dan menanyakan keadaanmu. karena ia mengkhawatirkanmu.

11.Kalau kamu bilang akan menghadapi ujian ia akan menanyakan kapan ujian itu, dan saat harinya tiba ia akan mengirimkan sms "good luck "untuk menyemangati kamu.

12.Orang yang mencintai kamu akan memberikan suatu barang miliknya yang mungkin buat kamu itu ialah sesuatu yang biasa , tetapi itu ialah suatu barang yang istimewa buat dia.

13.Orang yang mencintai kamu akan terdiam sesaat,saat sedang berbicara ditelpon dengan kamu,sehingga kamu menjadi bingung, saat itu dia merasa sangat gugup karena kamu telah mengguncang dunianya.

14.Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu ingin berada di dekatmu dan ingin menghabiskan hari2nya denganmu.

15.Jika suatu saat kamu harus pindah ke kota lain untuk waktu yang lain ia akan memberikan nasihat supaya kamu waspada dengan lingkungan yang bisa membawa pengaruh buruk bagimu.

16.Orang yang mencintai kamu bertindak lebih seperti saudara daripada seperti seorang kekasih.

17.Orang yang mencintai kamu sering melakukan hal-hal yang konyol seperti menelponmu 100 kali dalam sehari, atau membangunkanmu ditengah malam, karena ia mengirim sms atau menelponmu.karena ia saat itu ia sedang memikirkan kamu.

18.Orang yang mencintai kamu kadang merindukanmu dan melakukan hal2 yg
membuat kamu jengkel atau gila, saat kamu bilang tindakannya membuatmu terganggu ia akan minta maaf dan tak akan melakukannya lagi.

19.Jika kamu memintanya untuk mengajarimu sesuatu maka ia akan mengajarimu dgn sabar walaupun kamu mungkin orang yang terbodoh di dunia!

20.Kalau kamu melihat handphone-nya maka namamu akan menghiasi sebagian besar "INBOX"nya.Ya ia masih menyimpan pesan dari kamu walaupun pesan itu sudah kamu kirim sejak berbulan2x bahkan bertahun2x yang lalu.

21.Dan jika kamu menghindarinya atau memberi reaksi penolakan, ia akan menyadarinya dan menghilang dari kehidupanmu, walaupun hal itu membunuh hatinya.

22.Jika suatu saat kamu merindukannya dan ingin memberinya kesempatan ia akan ada di sana menunggumu karena ia tak pernah mencari orang lain.
Ya... ia selalu menunggumu.

Adakah org yg memperlakukan kamu dgn cara2 seperti di atas?
Kalau ada, jgn pernah sia-siakan org tsb...
kamu akan menyesal melakukannya!!

This is taken from... T-T lupaaa....

cHIgAu... ATTENTION please... ~ueto aya mode on~

2006-05-22T12:35:00.000+09:30

OOOhhh....
hari ini gimana ya...
kok rasa nya cape bgt.....
badan rasa nya remuk semua...
mana g batuk2 dikit...
g ke kampus cuma pake sendal gunung lage... LUPA klo mesti pake baju paling ga sopan bwat ketemu PROF and DOkter2 ausie itooo.... Oh Nooooooo....

DOUSHIYOUUUUUUUUUUUUU

Mata mata atashi no seda da na....

Sa... Kehabisan energi gw...
capeek...

cystage

2006-05-15T19:27:00.000+09:30

hmm...
tze... today i found your cystage invitation in my junk mail folder.. T-T
Ooooohhhh.... *hotmail rese....*
ya udah.. daftar d...
tapi bingung booo... ngak ngerti.. itu cron g uda mao berkurang aja....
gak tau cara naekin nya lage.... maa~k... HAHAHA

nick gw di situ 283... ^0^

anyway...
hari ini rencana nya asi bankdraft ke DENOK... tapi.. batal...
pada nyadar ga harga $AU naek banget? kemaren masi 6.800an .... sekarang hampir 7rebuan... mateeee...
g di melb makan apa ya?? bakal mengGELANDANGkah diriku ini??
MINNA.... -__-''

initinya... g hari ini baru dapet catatan medis g yang lengkap mengenai g kena bronkitis...
dari catatan X-ray sampe fotonya plus obat2an yg selama ini g pakai... smeua nya lengkap.. rencanya g bakal kasi ke dr. RUDY di MMC ntar selasa...
hueee.. moga2 aja dia ada... kemaren2 g nanya suster di MMC sih kata nya dr. nya bakal ada tapi gak praktek... -___-''' (it means.... ARghh....) udah bodo.. dicoba aja...
moga2 dia mo bikinin gw surat keterangan gitu d...
gila aja kalo visa g ditunda ampe 2 bulan cuma gara2 kultur sialan untuk ngebuktiin g gak kena M.TBC.... giling2... =___='''
ausie... ampun dah... beribet amat sieeee...

jadi besok g mao ke mmc dolo page2... trus dari situ ke Commonwealth narik bankdraft nya.. trus dari situ langsung ke DENOK...
Amien.... *ya TUHAN... help mee... T-T.. KAMISAMA... *

hari ini juga jam 5 pagi gitu gunung MERAPI meledak ya??
BUAhAHAHAHAHA
akhir nya muntah juga tuh gunung...
gimana ya nasib orang2 yg disuru ngungsi tapi gak mao ituh ya?? *i wonder....*
kata adek gw si pada di data doank gitu (yg ga mao ngungsi)... kata ad g MUNGKIIIN... supaya lebih mudah dalam pengenalan proses mayat2 nya... =___=''
ampun...
aduuuh... tolong ya... uda diperingatin itu gunung bakal meledak gak percaya... malah balik lageee... giliran uda gawat banget .,.. baru minta tolongpindahin... T-T
nyusahin aja....

HOHOHOHo

anyway... di atas itu cuma apa yg dipikiran g doank.. jgn di ambil serius yaaa....
^0^
santaiiii
okeh! ^-^v

new day's dawn

2006-05-14T20:57:00.000+09:30

hmm... jadi kepikiran molo neh lagu2 nya GARY...
^0^
adudududu...
lagu nya enak d...
itu GARY penyanyi taiwan...
g juga baru tau pas g dateng k idol GM n tiba2 aja cece penjaga tokonya neytel MV nya GARy yg SUPERWOMAN... OMG... that was COO~L...
kya...
apa lagi pas adegan cewe na bilang 'wo cen de hao ai ni...'...
*ellen jatoh gelinding di tanah....*

KYAAAAA~~~
pusing d gw... pusing d gw....

itu lagu g baru nemu mp3 nya di situs2 cina gitu d...
belom ada translation nya samse...
nama lengkap nya klo ga salah...
GARY CAO GE

MINNA!! klo ada yg tau ttg lagu ini... dan punya koleksi lagu GARy n MV atau PERF nya.... let me know ya...
terutama translation nya...
OMG...
itu lagu enak bgt....
^----^
*senang...*

orenji kimochi

2006-05-07T16:22:00.000+09:30

wei minna... akhir2 ini wa lagi tergila2 ma ichi ritoru.. ^^'' *basi amat...* but anyway.. ost nya keren loh... apalagi pas tau arti lirik nya... wa dapet di meg-chan lyric page... credits to em.. ^^'' *sejujurnya.. i dont know how to make a link for her.. ^^'' so i just put credits like that..* gomen for my lack of knowledge.. ^^
hehe
here you are...

Remioromen _konayuki (powdered snow)
We always miss each other in the season of fluttering powdered snow
Though we're lost in the crowd, we're looking up at the same sky
And blown by the wind, we both feel the same chill

I'm sure I don't know everything about you
But still I found you out of a hundred million people
I have no proof, but I truly believe that

We can't spend time together without quarrelling over little things
If we can't be honest with each other, happiness and sadness are empty

If the powdered snow had made our hearts white
Would we have been able to share our loneliness?

I want to press my ear against your heart
And descend quietly into the depths where that voice leads me
Let's meet there once again

I'm the one who said I wanted us to understand each other, but just brushed the surface
When just by holding your cold hand we're connected

With eternity before it, the powdered snow seems too fragile
It stains the surface of the rough asphalt

Powdered snow, sometimes I'm unreliable and my heart is swayed
But even so I want to keep protecting you

If the powdered snow has made our hearts white
It will enfold our loneliness and return it to the sky

_______________________________________________________

saa.. orenji kimochi...^0^

and ada lagi... g juga nemu arti lirik nya GIRLS ON TOP.. ^^ wew.. T.0.P bgt..
i love BoA... sarang heeee...

anyway... ada yg tau gak... lagu GOONG yg pas si princess nya nagis di mobil pas eps ke 6?? pas si princess di tinggal prince nya berkuda... ^^ itu lagu nya enak looh... tapi ay lupa judul nya... ^^'' *tze.. forgive me... T-T*
apakah bener judulnya Perhaps Love (Sarangingayo) / HowL & J ???
T-T.. i desperately wanted to know badlyyyy ^0^v

yey!
enak kali ya jadi princess di situ.... *mimpi...* ---> ditarik shinji keluar dari mimpi...
Hahahaha...
anyway...
sekian dolo hari ini...
I WISH everyone have luck and happiness also JOY !! ^^ gOoD LuCk! *niruin takukimu*
hahaha

oh ya ampir lupa....
g nyari team medical dragon donlotan di mana ya??
ada yg uda punya lom??
ato tau link nya??
share plizz with me...

^^

im lack of information nii... -__-''

hellooooo

2006-05-07T01:30:00.000+09:30

aduuu...
mood: Remioren_konayuki ost.ichi ritoru

hehehe... MINNA!!!... TEPPEI plays dorama in TEAM MEDICAL DRAGON loooohhhhhhh!!!!!
*bawa spanduk lewat semua orang.... * *tola kiri-tola kanan...*

hehehe...

ampun dah... basi bgt gw... -_-''

minna.. take me to a place....
shinji... kawinlah bersama kuwwwwwwwwww *hahahahahahhahaha*
I love u shinjiiiiiiiii

the worst of me

2006-05-05T03:11:00.000+09:30

I hATE my self....

i can't stand it anymore...
why why why...
why i have to feel this way about that ... about this... y must put lot of emotion on somthing u just dont need to bother...

why argueing things that's need not to be discussed...

why afraid of somethings which still be uncertain...
why i always put my self in muzukashii situation...

why i became more and more weak each day...

I used to be stronger than this... can embrace the pain more than this...
why i become such anooying person??
what do i search for?

life is like boat _ Rie Fu

2006-04-23T19:21:00.000+09:30

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who’s gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can’t escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

Each breath escaping my body becomes transparent and goes far away
And even when I think everything’s dark, I’m only blindfolded

Offering a prayer, I wait for a new day to come
Until the reflection of the sunrise sparkling on the sea disappears completely

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don’t give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

~~People’s HEARTS are CONSTANTLY CHANGING, PEELing AWAY FRESH LAYERS
WITH EACH NEW PHASE of THE MOON~~

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I’d feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

And still, the journey goes on, even on these calm days
And still, each new phase of the moon reflects its light onto my heart

Offering a prayer, I wait for a new day to come
Until the reflection of the sunrise sparkling on the sea disappears completely

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

We are all rowing the boat of fate, the waves keep on coming and we can’t escape [1]
Even that is a beautiful journey; even anything is a beautiful journey

note: credits to freckle . tenkeimedia . com

minggu...

2006-04-23T19:13:00.000+09:30

I wanna go to a place where I can say
That I’m all right and I’m staying there with you
I wanna know if there could be any way
That there’s no fight, and I’m safe and sound with you

===taken from RIE FU's I wanna go to a place===

headache... plus kompyuta damaged... T-T

2006-04-13T20:40:00.000+09:30

ahahaha...
nga ada hari yg lebih "indah" dari kemaren...
apa yg terjadiiiii... T-T
KOMPYUTA KUWWW...

begitu g buka tulisan nya malah "please insert the boot cd"
@_@''
Nah loh... T-T DOUSHIYOUUUUUU~~~
abis itu g cancel... gak g masukin cd.. ternyata tetep sama command nya..
ya uda.. pasrah g masukin recovery cd nya *berharap pokonya paling nga g bisa buka windows nya...* tetapi... yg terjadi malah itu kompyuta keluarin command yg sama lageh... "insert the boot cd... * ALAMAKKK... BEGEDUK BELEDUK KOMPUTER SIYALL...
*jedot2in pala di tembok*... ARGhhhhhhh......
Wo de TIAN~~~~...

anyway... tomorrow is GOOD FRIDAY loh.. and i kinda lazy to attend one of its ekaristi.. T-T... apa yg terjadi pada ku...

bentar lagi musti medical cehckp up.. urus visa... mak.. bisa gila...
belom bikin report Bio na Ibu Ila, terus bikin reprot FCP untuk GP visit and PV... Semua data ku udah ILANG~~... KAMISAMA...

wow yeah...

akhir2 ini g makan banyak indomie lage... makk...

hmm.. Tze.. akhir nya g ke papaya loh.. akhir nya g liat itu toko boo..
wakakaka.. menyenangkan sekalee... ^o^
but i end up only buy U.F.O *instant mie that u ever told me before*..
laen kali bareng yok *kalo bisa sebelom g cabs dari ini nagara*... terus kita bareng juga makan sushi na...
ajak panda, ellys, arleen, dianne, ma vicky juga.... WAKAKAKA... bisa makan banyak...

Hmm.. to DIANNE...
Happy BeLATED B'day ya.. T-T
*sorry i can't go to the gath these days...*

udah dulu ah...
mao mandi..
*sebenernya si mao maen the c r i m s... tapi blom mulai season baru nya... T-T
hm... eh tze, arleen, sinner.. coba maen the c r i m s juga d... ^o^v seru loh*

ja~ bye2

02042k6

2006-04-02T17:30:00.000+09:30

"Like the cherry blossom which falls from the tree in its prime, the samurai must have no regrets when his life is cut off."
- Misc

"Intelligence is the flower of discrimination. There are many examples of the flower blooming but not bearing fruit.

No matter whether a person belongs to the upper or lower ranks,
if he has not put his life on the line at least once he has cause for shame."

-Nabeshima Naoshige (1538-1618)

and..

2006-02-13T01:01:00.000+10:30

and today is just so... -.-''
gimana bilang nya ya... berantakan...
gw bangun jam 9an... trus makan mandi... nonton tv bentar.. mulai belajar jam 12... sisa nya doank... which is PHARMACOLOGY.. T-T.. UGH!!
itu bener2 deh.. dari jam segitu kgak masuk2... =__= moga2 an besok ujian gw bisa....
ah.. TUHAN ku... bagaimana ini...

sesuatu terjadi..
menghilang... menghilang...

ada apa dengan mu....
apa yg selama ini gw lakukan... kemana sebenarnya gw ini mo melangkah...
setiap malam berdoa berharap menjadi yang lebih baik di keesokan hari nya.. tapi kita tetaplah manusia yg punya rasa ego...

nah..lagi baca translation ayu lage... *lagi2...* haha...
mo share ni...
judul nya CRIMINAL... yg translate orang divine ayu
=====================================================--
Criminal

As your silence remains longer
I feel as if I heard your voiceless cry
And my heart would break

Why am I so powerless and stupid?
I can't even protect the hand I surely held

I don't ask you to forgive me some day
If you are fighting alone now
That's the definite sign for me

You wished to be strong so much
That you hid something with tears just for me

* You see? We will get to that place some day
I want to show you a superb view
That's the sign for tomorrow, our future
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hmm... the lyric really touch me somehow.. ^^''

well.. one thing for sure...
i wanna live my life with no regrets...
so i will surely held the hand that i want to protect...
mou daijobu da ne...

a song for XX ...

2005-12-27T18:11:00.000+10:30

You kept on smiling till the end
But the things that went on
were simply too beautiful to reject
I couldn’t stand it anymore, and tears overflowed

That day, we were touched by love, I know

We keep on searching
losing sight of time
And before long, we’ll find
that only the end is waiting for us there

There’s nothing besides the call of destiny

You began your journey towards heaven
becoming the star that gently illuminates me

Be your side, I passed my time, being loved, changing myself
but we didn’t see that the future is here
Don’t you think we should leave it like this?

Be your side, I passed my time, being loved, changing myself
but we didn’t see that the future is here
Because we left it behind

I believe in the man that loved me, and you live on in my heart
However, from here on
I will no longer have to say goodbye

That day, we were touched by love, I know

Will

2005-12-27T18:08:00.000+10:30

Lyrics: Ayumi Hamasaki Translation: Jonathan Wu

Travelers will realize, that on
their journey they will come to many crossroads

The voice of their hearts wonder how far it is
and choose the things that will guide them

*Nobody knows about
the darkness of tomorrow
As long as I’m with you, I swear
that I will stretch out my arms as far as I can

**Flutter flutter flutter
fluttering like leaves
Tremble tremble, trembling heart
pride that grows

For my own sake, for the sake of my being
I lose sight of the things that make me sad

I believe in the scenery
that nobody can see
As long as I’m with you, I wish
that I would’t have to be there

***Shine shine shine
like the pouring sunlight
Dazzle, dazzle, let go of the
light that dazzles

*Repeat
**Repeat
***Repeat

these days...

2005-12-27T12:48:00.000+10:30

...
... But you can have my word that I will always care and watch over you...
I look up to your back as a guidance to live...
That's why I'll never forget you my dear..
... There is a special space in me
kono kokoro no naka ni will always be yours..
anytime you leave, I'll wait for you here...
always... I cherish you...
Thanks for making me like this.. making me think in some different point of views..
kimi no waratte... kimi no egao.. your thoughts.. and your words..
I wonder.. what make you be able to say those??
These strengthen words will always linger in my heart...
YoU.. definitely leave footprints in me..
Loving you sometimes makes me T-T... *not sad loh..*
be healthy ok...
Its ok to tell me things... go a head and share em with me..

This Chrismas.. you asked me what kind of present that i wanted...
I dont want any materiel
Just want to have you by my side...
That just all i want to ask ...
And I said those secretly within me..

The day after you asked again.. what kind of present which I really like..
haha... ;D
You know.. you have already given me one... *SHITETA??* ^^v

... sunshine.. ^^

2005-12-22T23:26:00.000+10:30

MOOD: 妳聽得到 by 曾郁婷 [sung by 周杰倫]

For u-know-who..
[did you know... ??^^ *haha...* anta wa taiyou... \(^.^)/]

nah, minna san... lets sing along... ~itsumo2 arigatoo....~ ^^V

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sparkling point
taiyou no uta

atan no kokage kimi to
toketekuyuu hina ga ne
sasana miino melody
kazeni yurerusanendana
atatakai hikari de kokoro mo
nukumo ote yuku

kurikaereba soko ni wa
kawaranai kyoudai jimato egao
kono shimani umare i ikite
hokoritaite kyou mo mata
Ah
hibikya tida no uta

yura yura nagarete yuku
toki wo kanji nagara
utao utai tsuzukeru
kimi ni kikoeru youni
meguri yuku
kisetsu no nakaade
mitsuketa omoi wa

tsurai toki wa
namida fuki
tanoshi to kira tomoni warai
kimi ga sobani iru dakede
ooki na akai hana saku
ah
hibi kya tida no uta

aiaia sasa
sankyu for your egao
itsumo itsu wo kokoro no naka ni
sasaete kureru minna wo hagemini
we are waiting sparkling side (?)
itsumademo itsu our mind
.. [cannot hear the lyric -.-'' sorry]

itsumo hontou ni arigato
yasashiku terashite kureru
furikaereba soko ni wa
kawaranai kyodai jimato egao
kono shimani umare ikite
hokoritaite kyou mo mata
ah
hibikya tida no uta

learn something today...

2005-12-19T21:32:00.000+10:30

Haa... I found this in AM fan blog.. really touch me yoo.,.. ^^''
i guess i learn sumthng today.. ^^V
YOSHA!!!!
I need lotsa effort to really understand this feeling... lotsa learning..
Dear you.. sorry for all the troublesome tht i've already made.. ^^ *entah itu sengaja atau tidak.. n entah itu tidak dirasakan atau tidak...* starting from today.. I'll be a better person... ZETTAI NI... ^o^V mainichi2 yo!!
MINNA-san... ISHOUNI.. ^-^ YOSHH!!

__
I once had a friend who grew to be very close to me. Once when we were sitting at the edge of a swimming pool, she filled the palm of her hand with some water and held it before me, and said this: "You see this water carefully contained on my hand? It symbolizes Love."

This was how I saw it: As long as you keep your hand caringly open and allow it to remain there, it will always be there. However, if you attempt to close your fingers round it and try to posses it, it will spill through the first cracks it finds.

This is the greatest mistake that people do when they meet love...they try to posses it, they demand, they expect... and just like the water spilling out of your hand, love will retrieve from you.

For love is meant to be free, you cannot change its nature. If there are people you love, allow them to be free beings.

Give and don't expect.
Advise, but don't order.
Ask, but never demand.

Heaven

2005-12-13T20:45:00.000+10:30

being beside the loved one
exceeding time the shape is changing
two person that is not seen yet is a thing in the future
believing in what is seen
the loved one
in me
you live
therefore from this it blooms

Me....

2005-12-12T21:43:00.000+10:30

Mood: taiyou no uta [by Sparkling Point]

kyou wa.. bener2 cape... dunno what exactly how I feel.. completely confuse..
IBCM exam itu 9 days left.. T-T... ARGH... DORAEMON... give me your memory bread pleaseeeeeee.... -__-'''

list of problems...
- moneytree
- memory
- self
- patient
- organization
- ambition
- destruction

i merely dont see any hope within those ...

Ha.. X'mas.. kenapa ye.. BAH... wa bkn org pbenci natal but.. hh.. tau ah..

MAY THIS X'mass give lots of people JOY and Laughter....
MAY all your wish come true...

the true me... real me...

2005-11-29T02:04:00.000+10:30

It may be an illusion
And we may only want to believe
That we have got

If we don't express
Our thoughts and feelings in words
They may not be understood nor reach

In order to survive
You should not want to be healed
Without fighting

In order to survive
You should not easily
Show your tears to someone

Maybe it's all right
So long as I have desires
And am not satisfied

Maybe I have heard enough people saying
That they knew the value of something
Only after losing it

In order to survive
We cannot always be
So good girls

In order to survive
We cannot be kind to others
Before we know pain

________
kono sekai ni.. ma.. mou ganbarou ganbarou yoo... mainichi-mainichi ...
yosh..

Happy Ending

2005-11-22T00:04:00.000+10:30

There are lots of stars
As if to fill the gap between thick clouds
They are shining like a prayer
Almost like a shout
And my chest is constricted

I hope the morning will come for me soon
Before I can't hide up my weakness

It's strange I feel so lonely at night
Only because you are not here

After how many times of
Committing a sin like this

Will I be inhuman?
Will I be invisible to everyone?

I find nothing I want in a place like this
Which I escaped and tumbled into
I rip my feelings off my heart
And stick a smile on the mask
Please take me away from here
Before everything becomes a memory

I felt I knew the meaning of love a little
After I had met youIf I can finish my penance some day
If I'm forgiven some day ...

But I have no right after all that
To tell the definition of happiness

Well, I know better than anyone else
That a happy ending never suits me

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ne... i guess, i dont deserve it.. even though i want it so badly..
gomen na for all the troubles... I wonder what would happen tomorrow.. still i be able to face him like usuall? Well... I dont think so.. Me have many alter .. even I do not know when I'm not strong enough be able to surpress the other alter of mine.. haa...
this life... what should I do now?

Maple

2005-11-21T23:25:00.000+10:30

The dark cloud places a piece of shadow in our hearts
I listen respectfully to my mood, which has already been quiet for a long time
Clear and transparent
Just like the beautiful scenery
It’s always only clear when seeing it in my memory

Can the heart, that has been thoroughly hurt, still continue to love me?
I make an effort to pull up the pair of hands that have no warmth
The tenderness in the past has already been locked by time
Only leaving sadness that doesn’t go away
The maple leaves slowly falling down are like thoughts
I light a candle to warm up the end of autumn
The aurora plunders the edge of the sky
The south wind brushes past, thinking of your appearance
I take love and burn it into fallen leaves
Yet I can’t get back that familiar face

The maple leaves slowly falling down are like thoughts
Why must retrieving be hurried before autumn comes?
Loving you passing through time
Two rows of tears from the end of autumn
Let love permeate through the ground
All I want is you to be by my side

The graceful red rain in between the mountainside
Withering with the north wind
I lightly swing the wind chimes
I want
To awaken the love that has been deserted
Snowflakes are already spread all over the ground
Deeply scared that the maple leaves outside the window have already become frozen

_taken from November Chopin album_

What a day

2005-11-15T13:58:00.000+10:30

Haha... TZE!! ^o^ MISS YOUU!!! *muach*
adudududu....
kept thinking when will we meet... ARgh... Benar,, seperti orang pacaran aja.. Hahahaha

really miss Beijing, Shanghai, Shenzhen, HK, especially Mongkok... *cries*
I really love BIG CITIES!! ^^'' haha... gak kepikiran gimana klo g tinggal di desa... T_T... jauh dari semua sarana menuju 'my entertaiment' Argh.. T_T
Teppei... teppei...
Next i will post some of my pics in China... *I hope i can yoo~...*

hamasaki ayumi sama...

2005-10-18T01:08:00.000+09:30

"I'm looking up at the stained sky
so my tears don't well up and fall.

Why can't people live
as they wish

I don't want a weak heart that can't cry
or the strength not to cry.

I'll search for a shooting
star to cast my wishes on, but
dawn is coming too soon
and I won't be able to find one."

_hanabi_

Everybody’s calling for names

2005-10-18T01:05:00.000+09:30

I came out of my room…
Seeing the sky…
Ah… it is black ne.. no stars, no moon… just black..
I remember…it had been full moon for 3 days.. no wonder..
I begin to walk…
The wind softly touch my cheek…a bit cold..
I begin to hug myself.. hope my body wouldn’t let its heat go..
Nevertheless … it seems useless…
I keep searching for a slightest light …
Wondering where it was hiding…
This view.. I remember you…
..
Ah.. I’m looking up to the stained sky so that none of them fall…
Those memories …
Wish I could find a shooting star to cast my wish on…
…

by ellen [masi bengong pas kelar nulis ini...] ahahahaha

this life...

2005-10-17T02:15:00.000+09:30

Sometimes I ask myself,
how much farther will I have to go?

I hear your voice.
I hear a voice saying "don't give up"

If you're tired of denying things
and seem as if you're not yourself...

Belive in me.
I'll always be here.
The proof that you're alive
exists inside of me.

In this, this dirty city,
you're the person who
gathers up and shows me
something beautiful.

I hear your voice.
I hear a voice saying "don't give up"
Believe in me.
I'll always be standing here.

I'll always protect you,
so you never ever lose
that which you have clutched
close to your heart.

[This is a translation of 'FREE & EASY'. Translated by wataru. Credits to wataru n Divine ayu]

7 things ^^''

2005-10-14T23:57:00.000+09:30

Okay..Tze pass me this quessionaire titled 7 things about me.. quite interesting yo~
So here you go… I proudly present you… 7 things about me! (^o^)V

7 things that scare the hell outta me
1. being left alone … I mean really left out.. T_T
2. Crocoach
3. Final Exam…
4. Scary movie
5. Looking tired..
6. Human Liquid ~whatever the form is. You’ll never know what’s inside don’t you? ~
7. Failed to finish my task

7 things/people I love most
1. My dad, my lil sis.
2. JE friends, Asianpop Friends ~hahahaha~, Campus Friends, and semua anak mantan A3 [lulusan taon 2003]di FVI
3. All stunica’s member [esp. PuB’s ^o^] ~hidup PuBlication!! ~ *THROWS CONVENTI~ hahahaha
4. My laptop
5 .My TEXTBOOKS… ~spend lotsa money on them… better love those books…~.
6. My Lab coat..
7. My purse la~

7 important stuff in my room
1. BED
2. CUPBOARD
3. Discman
4. Laptop
5. Guling
6. Blanket
7. clothes, shirts, pants, undies… ~ya u know la~~

7 random facts about me...
1. I am so easily fall into different kind of situation and trapped inside… -__-‘’’
2. But when there is an assignment to do, I pretty sure I’ll do my best to finish it.. no matter what.
3. I am the one who fall for tsubasa [but recently have an AFFAIR with Teppei !!]
4. I have a very blur pheripheral vision.. [you can’t expect me to cheat on an exam, not becoz I don’t want to, but that becoz I cant !! ]
5. I am a reckless person… ^^’’
6. I easily forget things… even names.. -.-“
7. I like to decorate things out… ^^”

7 things I plan to do before I kick the bucket..
1. I want to study abroad.. ~not longer anymore.. make me pretty scared…~
2. I want to be a damn nice succesfull person
3. I want to attend one of tsuba’s concert and WaT’s Concert Too!!!! [^o^] ~meaning; GO to JAPAN~~
4. I want to be in the backstage in one of AYUMI HAMASAKI’s Concert
4. I want to go to HAWAII ~wanted to know what Hawaii really looks like~..
5. I want to travel to all EAST ASIA countries [that would be amazing!!]
6. I want to cherish all the moment with all you guys… ^o^V

7 things that I can do
1. Analyze one’s ^^’’ um.. symptoms and sign?? ^^ hahaha…. Duh.. -.-‘’
2. Eat
3. Nyuci
4. Bikin nasi
5. Bikin aer panas
6. napas
7. tidurr…. =P

7 things I can't do
1. Memorize Jalan2 Ibukota… ~ampe bego juga g ga bakal inget… T_T~
2. Drive a car ~destinaiton nya Cuma 2… either it would be to hospital or to a damn good luxurious cemetery.
2. Grow my money Tree *kasih pupuk ke money tree… kasi air…*
3. Fix computer problem… -.-‘’ damn..
4. Make-up.. I even don’t have my own cosmetics..^^’’ always go to salon to do this kind of thing… ^^’’’
5. Wake up really early in the morning… ~You do have a problem if you want to do so.. must put lotsa effort to wake me up looh…^-^; ~
6. Not to smile or laugh in a day… ^o^V
7. Make MAIN MEAL… ^^; …

7 things I say the most
1. EeeEEEhhh???!!!
2. Hah?!
3. Um…
4. Anyway…
5. Err…
6. Larrrr
7. OMG!

7 celeb crushes
1. Teppei Koike ^o^ ~chuu~
2. Tsubasa Imai
3. Ueda Tatsuya
4. Akanishi Jin
5. Kamenashi kazuya
6. Eiji Wentz
7. Kota Yabu… La~la~la…

7 People who have to do this

1. Sato
2. Vicky
3. Dianne
4. Panda
5. Chica
6. Tia
7. Shinji (?) wakakaka… *thud*…

need to find things...

2005-10-13T23:47:00.000+09:30

Hue...
Quote of the day...

" Do not believe anything that everybody says about someone.. until one said it by himself..."

something kowai happen... My dream sedikit demi sedikit muali jadi kenyataan... -.-'''
ano kowai yume... T_T'''

I pray to GOD that HE always give blessings and shine on you... zutto....

Only Human

2005-10-10T22:08:00.000+09:30

Today is another amazing day..
I dreamt weird things...
Hh...
g mimpi dia sekarat, and found out cause of it in details.. T_T'' OMG..
the worst is.. i often had a deja-vu... T_T'' dont wanna this happen...
GOD... help him...

"no matter what may happen, as long as you are happy and glad, my feelings is not important to be heard... I'd be happy too"
by ellen

...

2005-10-08T21:18:00.000+09:30

Hohoho...another poetry again.. *whack myself..*... I dont know what happen to me these days.. T_T.. When I 1st hear this song, words came to my mind.. swimming.. I need to write them down... So here it goes...

"That time you still on the beach..
We sit together and stare the same star…
Together we try to find falling stars in the middle of the cool night…
Your smile.. Your laugh …
Your reaction.. Your attitude ....
Those clearly left footprints in my heart…
Bring peace in me....
Hen desu.... It seems that all those things I have known for years...
Those seems so familiar to me..
Let go all your thoughts…
Speak it out loud… Scream!
Let those wind carry your problems…
Go to that beach once again…
Take my hand..
Together with me.. lets go!..."

By ellen
Inspired from [Izaoi no Tsuki _ W-inds]

Hoe.. Hope I'll recover soon from this POETRY MODE... T_T
Anyway, ^o^
Today i received TEPPEI KOIKE's Unofficial Photos delivered by arleen.. ^o^ URESHI!!
*HUGZ Arleen!!* ~Plus sun kiri sun kanan~
KYA~~~~...
Later I'll show u the pic ok! I haven't take a picture of it.. yet.. ^o^''
Teppei nya SENYUM SODARA2!!!! SENYUM!!! *MELTS*

Ok d..
Segitu dulu for today...
m( _ _ )m
orsukaresama deshita...

Negai...

2005-10-02T18:18:00.000+09:30

Mood: Mellow
Song: K- only human

Hey! ^^ tze, thx for gave me such wonderful ‘blood supply’ .. I really do need that.. ^^
Arigato.. * thanx juga bwat layout na! ^^ Chu~*

Yey.. I am now watching and listening to ICHI LITRE NO NAMIDA’s cm. I’ve been play the cm for more than 20 times.. gee . T_T.. so sad..

Dear ‘u’..
I hope I didn’t hear any truth that day…
I hope that the truth *they are saying it so* are all lies…
I wish that our relationship last.. I really do..
What are you really think of?
What do you want me to do?
The rain falls… Will these raindrops deliver this feeling?
We are only human.. I realize that we cant be forever in this world..
Therefore, I want your smile to be eternal in every heart.. so shall you let the sun frame your smile, let those trees guide us, and let the moon gives you hope…
I’m 100% sure cherish every single moment that I’ve and will spend with you…
So, take my hand and let’s have some fun together yo~ =D
By ellen
~inspired from Ichi Litre no Namida’s CM.~

Ha3.. Now it is time to watch every single cd that my friend already gave me… ^^
Wait ya tze! ^o^v

confused

2005-09-04T23:16:00.000+09:30

i dont know what happen to me... this day, I try to sms him asking bout hows he, etc.. but he keep only reply me with this one word... "OK". what happen with him? -.-'' did i do something wrong? I need to clarify this.. demo.. his gank always stays around him.. i afraid to come near.. -.-'' hh... pathetic me..
I dont know what i want...
One thing for sure...
hey YOU[if you know and realize who is it ...than... yeah..]!!... give my DVD back to me.... -.-'''

otsukaresama deshitaaa....>.>

2005-08-28T00:31:00.000+09:30

today... my sis had this cosply thingy going on in citos...
T_T
met endiru ... take pictures...
the most lame thing happen...
I take oro's pic in the wrong POSITION!!!! T_T... oro is dark in my pic... gomen na... demo... itu kan for myself ya.. ^^''

the others ok lah... endiru's wardrobe is awsome... *hails endiru...*

i hope tht next time... i can use my digicam BETTER... T_T... Huh...

today is just...

2005-08-16T13:13:00.000+09:30

Mood: realize by melody

last nite i just finished watch DZ4 & 5 together with my sis... ^^V wey.. teppei is Cho~ Kakkoi na... ^^V... How the way he speak,how the way he smiles, zenbu..melts me T_T awakakakaka
btw.. here you go.. i make the romaji of realize by myself...[so, forgive me if there's any mistake grammar or words in these lyric.. i just type it based on what i hear ]..
here you goo baby!
===================================================================

Title: Realize [op.theme for Doragon Zakura]
Singer: Melody

*I can mayomazuni
Suzumowo
Negai ni chi ga tsukeru yo
I see the light
Wake up, Stand up, mou ichido asu e try

Nakamai chiisai kono tere
hold on tight tsukamaetama precious
naku hi souna visions in me
niuhi naitekunai jibun no
wei.. do you know that i want it all
koko mono okure
kagayaki
tsu-zu-ke-ru-so-no yume o wasurenaide...

**I can mayomazuni
Sutzumowo
Negai nichi ga tsukeru yo
itsu no himi ga afureruni
Kari no hana wo sagase yo

I see the light
Wake up, Stand up, mou ichido asu e try

Here I am hitomi tojitara
Hitori janai koto ni kizuita
Kawai teita kokoroga
Ureshi namida ni soumaru once again
I promise shiwaka~ra
Kono mune no naka de
Ugoki ha-ji-me-ta-ko-no kodo kanji nagara

***I will omoikiri
Tsurau nuhu
Kono mama hashiri dakara
Itsu no himi ka
Yume mita bashou dea-ha-ha to waratte iru deshou
Wake up, stand up, Nandodemo get up and try

I realize~ ~I realize that we can get it back~

**
***
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ja~..
now.. i am waiting mba' chandra to come to inter... T_T... she is late.. i need to meet her to rearrange my absent.. T_T..
so... my to-do-list today..
1. go to inter, find mba' chandra...ask her bout my absent. [whats wrong with it,etc] PLUS gave her the copy of my semester payment/receipt(?)
2. find more info bout IBCM
3. find more boks bout IBCM... as far as i know... it is..
- Jawetz, microbio
- Underwood, pathology
- Katzung, pharmacology
[try to find them also in the library...]
4. finish the IELTS reasing practice!!

bye then... i have to do sumthing else... -__-''

wish me luck yo!!

kono mune ni...

2005-08-15T01:01:00.000+09:30

[picture taken at 12 august 2005 in indonesian flora exhibition jakarta...taken by myself..]

Mood: Dakishimetai_K

Wadaw…TEPPEI… T_T… argh…

Today... i dont even manage myself to open his sms ...not a single one... ^^ yey!!
Started to lose myself even more…
Hueee….

Love Melody’s pv [realize] that michiyo just gave me last sat… hah… LUV IT!! Melody really cute na… *just realize that her figure is.. like that… ^^* haha… love her skirt lohh… kinda bohemian… love itt… ^^.. need to find exactly like that….

Okey then… me… need to prepare myself for…IELTS exam… T_T… ow gawd.. please bless me… [ I need that band 7 score badly…]T_T…. just give me 7…. Okey… ganbatte… ganbatee….

Waa~~iiT a MINUTE!!!

2005-08-14T02:36:00.000+09:30

hhh.... lotz of things happen this day....
started from... mr lulali telephone.... i wonder... why ppl keep questioning me bout him all day... remembering ... i even dont have any clue bout him either... Hhh....
best thing---> vicky gave me.. TEPPEI booklet from SEVENTEEN!!! ^^ Geee.... i almost poss out receiving such a blessed gift... @v@... *i called that blessed...*... its rare yooo..... i cherish you... i cherish this day... and I cherish all of you!!! YOU-TACHI!!! Muaach!

ya... for 8-san... ada bae nya lo bener2 ilang dari pikiran gw... gud news nya... hari ini g bhkan ga liyat 1 pun sms lo.... wakakaka.... giling... padahal kyaknya i used to like... cant live w/o it...
T_T
i guess... i learnt yooo....

Ara-ara-araaa......

2005-08-13T02:26:00.000+09:30

er.... this is my first time doing this blogging-kind-of-thing... ^^
so... kore kara mou yoroshiku onegaishimasu...
i create this .. naze?... becoz... i need to express myself...i've been through lots of depression..
-___- so i guess this is kind like a therapy to heal myself...
i know i lack of english... my grammar is totally TRASH... T_T... demo... i still ganbatte for that yo...

ok then...
hope i still update this as often as i cud

^^
YEY!! yoroshiku minna....